IN THE DARK SEASON 2 EPISODE 28
{Lillian Williams}
My name is Lillian and i am a native of Edo state.
I was the favourite child of my parent and been
the wealthy couple they were, spending on me
was something they do without a second thought.
My younger brother (Mike) was dull right from his
nursery school and this made my parents focus
more on my education.
I graduated as an accounting student from a
private university in Abuja back in the year 2000.
Then i was just twenty years.
My parents decided that i should put in for
masters immediately, after which I was to acquire
my Doctorate degree. I was the apple of my
parent’s eyes and i was the envy of my peer.
In the year 2001, I traveled to Canada after all
the preparation for my masters had been
finalized. Though i was still young, my parent
believed i would be just fine.
I had an apartment to myself in Canada and i had
a ride, my parent took care of it all.
Life was good, all i had to do was to study hard
and have fun. I did’nt make lots of friends but i
made one who changed my life.
He introduced himself as James, he was also in
Canada to acquire his Masters. I met him in a
shopping mall one afternoon. That very day, i
went to shop for my perfume. He walked up to me
and made a comment on how much he loved my
scent,he enventually asked for the product I was
into.
We ended up buying two bottles of my perfume,
which he paid for. From there we exchanged
contact and we became friends.
James was a likable person, he was homely and
fun to be with. During our friendship, i found out
that he was the son of a Minister back in Nigeria
and he was from Delta state. I did’nt care about
his position or his dad’s status, all that mattered
was the connection between us.
We had lots of things in common and everything
worked perfectly well, it was just like a magic.
On 22nd of March 2001, James asked me out.
Funny enough he did’nt ask me to be his
girlfriend, instead he requested me to be his
fiancee. Even before James asked me out, i
already said “Yes!” a million times.
James introduced me to his father on one of his
visit to Canada and i also got to meet his sister.
With james, i felt happy and safe. Oh! he was all
i ever wanted.
I spent lesser time in my apartment ever since
my relationship with James kicked off.
Though my parent had warned me about pre-
marital se.x,I allowed James have his way when
he requested for it. To me, it did’nt matter if we
had s.ex before or after marriage,all that mattered
was me spending the rest of my life with
James.He was my Prince charming.
My relationship with James was beautiful and our
sex life was awesome.It got to a point that we
stopped using protection while making out. The
hot love we had, made me forget all about taking
precautions, to me, MY LIFE WAS PERFECT.
After two months of been in a relationship with
James, i started feeling funny. I got malaria pills
and administered it but the feelings did’nt go
away.As the educated youth that i was,I ran to
goggle and searched for the illness my symptoms
were related.All the result i got, pointed to
pregnancy.I knew i had been having unprotected
sex but i did’nt want to believe that i was
pregnant.
I hid all the symptoms from James and got a
pregnancy test kit.Though I was scared,i decided
to carry out the test myself.
I rushed to my apartment and locked the door
behind me after getting the kit.
With the test kit on my table,i added two drops of
my urine with shaky hands.
Hot tears rushed down my cheek when two
coloured bands (C&T) appeared on the kit.
I WAS POSITIVE”
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“Hot tears rushed down my cheek when two
coloured band (C&t) appeared on the kit.
I WAS POSITIVE”
My mom paused and wiped the tears in her eyes
with the back of her hand. She then took a deep
breathe and continued.
“My world was shattered when i found out that i
was pregnant. The first thought that crossed my
mind was how disappointed my parent would be.
The thought of hurting my parent’s feelings made
me extremely angry. I smashed the kit on the wall
and screamed out James name. I even punched
my stomach consecutively, hoping to have a
miscarriage but nothing happened.
I thought about my life and thought about my
lifestyle, the only word i could describe myself
with was “Disappointment”
I was a disappointment to myself, my family and
all those that thought highly of me.
I looked at my stomach and the thought of it
becoming swollen in months made me crazy. For
once in my life, I caused the selfish love James
claimed to have for me. Though i knew i was the
architect of my misfortune, I put the blames on
James.
I could’nt call my parent to inform them and i
could not run to James for help, i decided to shut
everybody out.
The first thing i did was to smash my phone on
the floor, after which i locked the doors to my
apartment and i threw the keys into the refuse-
bin.
I would strip myself Unclad and sit in the bath
thub. I would then run the shower and cry my
heart out while my body gets soaked.
I would also listen to James shouting my name
and banging my door, after which he would leave
in frustration.
Nothing really mattered to me, or probably let me
say i was’nt thinking. The only thought that was
on my mind was how embarrassing it would be to
travel back to Nigeria with a heavy tommy instead
of a masters certificate. Life was really worthless.
At some point, i wondered how my once perfect
life could become a difficult puzzle. A puzzle i
could not fix.
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After a week of shutting the world out, i got tired
of hiding under my under my blanket, hoping all
that happened was a bad dream and it would
soon go away. I licked my wound and decided to
stay strong, i believed i was’nt the first to be
faced with the challenges i was facing and i
believed i could over come it all. I was so sure
even though i did’nt have a way out.
I had a long bath and fixed myself up, after which
i fixed my apartment. I got the sim card from the
broken phone and got the keys to my apartment
from the refuse bin.
I looked into the mirror and promised myself to be
strong, if not for anything, for the child growing
inside of me.
I abandoned my car and took a cab to James
apartment. Throughout the drive, i continued to
rehearse what i would tell James.
I met James absent when i arrived his apartment
and i could not reach him since i did’nt have a
phone. I leaned on the pole infront of his house
and waited for him. Throughout my period of
waiting, i continued to imagine James possible
reaction after i inform him, all i could come up
with was to wait for his arrival.
After over a hour of waiting for James without him
showing up, i decided to take my leave. I was
almost out of his street when i heard someone
scream my name. I could recognize his voice
even from million miles, he was the only love of
my life. I turned back and my eyes met James,
like a little girl, i could remember running into his
arms.
He held me close to his heart and carried me in.
All the anger i built against him disappeared as
soon as i sighted him.
James dropped me on a couch and knelt before
me. With care in his eyes,he held my hand and
asked for all that happened.
I apologized to James and told him that i was
going through some rough period of my life. At
first James was mad at me for shutting him out
just because i was down. Just like the real man
he was, he instructed me to open up to him.
I made my gaze meet James’s and said “Swidy, I
am pregnant”.
James froze and stepped away from me. I could
remember him holding his head as if he had an
attack.
His reaction made wonder if he understood me or
not. I moved closer to James and held his hand. I
made him look at me and said “James say
something, I said I’m pregnant, I’m carrying your
child, your baby”
James flung my hand and said “pregnant?? for
who?”
My heart sinked and my mouth went dry”
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