Episode 5
No words can express how I feel right now, yesterday was the worst day of my life, and yesternight was the longest night ever, I couldn’t sleep for a second. My pillow is soaked with tears, I wish I could just drown in my tears. I didn’t stand up from the bed until I was sure all my roommates had left for class. Kemi my best friend also came to check on me before she left for class. Going to class was the last thing on my mind, I just wished I can cease to exist. I gathered some strength, took my bath and drank a cup of water, drinking that water reminded me of the water I drank in Samuel’s room, did he inject the bottle or was the drug in the cup? I asked myself.
All I did throughout the day was thinking,how will my life be,will I ever get over this shame I feel inside. I decided to while away time on social media, I picked my phone and found out it was off already, the battery must have been low. I plugged it and switched it on and saw five missed calls from Bro samuel. “Why is this idiot calling me,hasn’t he done enough?” I asked myself and then I saw a text he sent saying “Jasmine, I am very sorry for yesterday, I don’t know what came over you. I just called to check on you. Can we see today after fellowship?” “His this guy completely out of his mind, while will I want to see him today or any other day for that matter” I thought I pray I never set my eyes on him again, but that won’t be possible because we attend the same fellowship. What will that rapist teach today in bible study, is he even born again atall or is he just pretending? I asked myself. May God deliver us from all this deceivers in the church of God calling themselves Christians. I felt the nudge in my spirit not to visit him,but I was not sensitive enough to the leading of the holy spirit. I sobbed. It was all my fault, but still why did God allow it to happen, he should have stopped it by all means, why God?why me Lord? I questioned God. I couldn’t eat through out the day, you don’t expect me to have appetite for food at the moment.
The day was faster than I thought it would be though. Kemi just came back from class and she didn’t even drop her back before she came to check on me, she is a friend like a sister. “Jasmine! you are a very terrible friend, you couldn’t even call or text me that you weren’t feeling fine yesterday” she said in a loud voice “am so sorry my friend, everything happened so fast”I said “So fast that you couldn’t text me” she cuts in “am so sorry dear, I won’t do that again” I said “You better don’t , or else I will “divorce “ You as my friend”she said laughing “So how are you feeling now?, did you read well,have you taken your drugs?” she asked anxiously “Yes I am better, you don’t need to worry” I replied trying to calm her down. “am relieved to hear that “She said as she hugged me “but your face is all swollen and your eyes are red too, are you sure you are fine?”she asked as she tried to check my face closely. “am ok dear” I said trying to hide my face and put on a fake smile. “So what happened in class today” I asked trying to change the subject “Nothing much,just the usual, but almost everyone asked after you. Even Professor Chidi and some other lecturer noticed your absence” she replied “Really, I can’t believe it , that is so nice of them” I said excitedly “What do you expect? You know you are Miss popular coupled with the fact that you are the best student, it is just normal that everyone will notice your absence, and you know you seldom misses class too” she said “Yes you are right. I should be in class tomorrow probably “ I said “Proba…what? You must be in class tomorrow, I miss you so much, today was so boring and long without you. Infact am coming to drag you out tomorrow morning to class whether you like it or not”she said frowning “Ok ok, I will come no need of dragging me Madam Iron lady” I said “better. It’s almost time for bible study let me go and freshen up so we can go together ” she said as she reach for the door “Am not going today” I said bluntly “Why? You love bible study so much, why would you want to stay alone in the room rather than being in God’s presence. You have rested enough ,don’t be lazy we are going together” She said “I think I need to rest more, am still feeling weak,unless you don’t want me to go to class tomorrow” I said trying to threaten her “If you like don’t go to class tomorrow,I don’t care, but we are going to fellowship together. And have you forgotten that today is general bible study,it’s your favorite teacher Bro samuel “She said with excitement. The sound of his name , makes me sick to the stomach, my mood changed instantly. For few minutes I had forgotten about my shame and sorrow, but Kemi just spoilt my mood unknowingly by mentioning that name. “Kemi please go and prepare for bible study don’t be late because of me “ I said as I try to usher her out. “Ok, I will check on you before I go incase you change your mind” she said Kemi left for her room and came back few minutes after to call me but I pretended not to hear her numerous knock. I don’t wish to see Bro samuel again not to talk of siting under his ministration. God forbid. *****
One week has passed already, but not a second passed by without thinking about everything that has happened. Samuel didn’t even help the matter with his constant calls and message, at a point I didn’t even bother to read his messages,I just delete them immediately. Today is bible study again,but it is not a general one like last week, we will have different classes with different bible study teacher, so I decided to go to fellowship. I tried to avoid contact with him throughout the service,and I was successful. The bible study was expository as usual, we discussed the importance of living a holy life, a life that is a pleasing aroma to God. I got a message from Samuel asking me to wait after the service, that he will like to have a word with me. This guy must be completely nuts if he thinks I will wait for him. I said to myself. I left with Kemi immediately after the fellowship ended. We were walking down to our hostel with other sisters discussing the topic we just treated I need the bible study, when I heard my name JASMINE !!!. I looked back and it was Bro samuel “Good evening sisters” he greeted everyone “can I see you for a minute”he whispered to me , while trying to redraw me from the other sisters “What do you want to see me for “I asked angrily before he could even say a word “What do you mean Jasmine?, after what happened last week, you can’t say No to my proposal. can you?” “You must be crazy to think I will want anything to do with you after what happened last week. I regretted the day I met you and I curse the day you were born. My answer is NO, I can’t marry a beast like you “ “Did you just say No to my proposal “ he shouted “Yes, my answer is No” I shouted back “You don’t know me Jasmine “ he said laughing mysteriously “Yes I know you, you are a beast, a liar and a deceiver. “ I shouted I left angrily before he could even respond or say any other thing “come back here am not done “he shouted I walked as fast as I could so I could get away from him.
I met Kemi waiting for me a distance away. She was curious to know what we were arguing about, she knew about his marriage proposal and I just told her we were discussing about the proposal and my answer was No which he didn’t accept. I just finished reading my bible when I remembered the conversation I and Samuel had today. What is giving him the effrontery to even talk to him like that, I thought. He wasn’t even feeling remorse about what he did to me and he is still thinking that I will say Yes to his proposal. When am not crazy I said aloud. My phone rang and it was Samuel calling again, he called several times but I didn’t pick up so he sent a Whatsapp message. “isn’t this a picture of me in his room ? I asked myself as I looked at the pictures closely…. *Lesson*- *Be Wise, Never You Visit A Brother/Sister Alone…And Also Pray For More Clarification Before You Become Emotionally Attached To Such Person. Not All That Glitters Is Gold.*
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