Episode 11
My dad came to my room early the next morning, and told me I have only two options to choose from, either I abort the pregnancy or I get ready to move out and marry the bastard that r@ped me. “I can’t have you in my house, carrying another man’s child, it will be a disgrace to me and the entire family, I can’t watch you destroy and tarnish the image of this family that I have built for decades. You are not a small girl anymore, your mates are married with kids in other part of the world, so pick one of the options or I will pick one for you.”
My dad said His words pierced my heart, I can’t describe how surprised I was, how can my dad suggest that I marry my r@pist, it is unimaginable. Am the apple of my dad’s eye, I can’t believe he will give up my happiness just for his reputations. “How could you say this Dad, you are putting me in a tight corner, aren’t you supposed to be on my side?” I asked with tears in my eyes “it’s not about being on anyone’s side, am just telling you what is best for you and everybody, and this is your fault in the first place, so you need to take responsibilities for visiting a r@pist alone” he said. The more he talked, the more his words felt like a two edged sword that pierces my heart to the marrow, so I kept quiet. There is no need to argue with him or try to make him reason in the right way. Not that I am ready to keep the baby too, but this is an innocent baby we are talking about. The baby has no fault whatsoever, he/she just happened to be conceived in a wrong way. “What am I supposed to do now” I kept thinking “If you don’t know what to do, I will help you to make the decision, and I am going to bear the consequences for you as well” my dad said breaking the silence. “So dress up and lets go to the hospital, we need to remove that thing in your tummy. Thank God it is just 6weeks old, it will be less complicated to do” he said as he leaves my room.
So my baby is just going to die just like that without any chance to live, I look at my stomach as if I could see the fetus inside, and I said am sorry baby, mummy is such a coward, she can’t fight for you and your father doesn’t even know you exist too. “Is mum also in support of dad’s decision” I thought as I was having my bath in the bathroom, how can mummy also agree too, she is a mother, I expect her to know better. “Maybe daddy gave her no option too” I thought. “Should I call kemi and ask for her advice, she always have solution to my problems” I thought. I picked my phone to dial her number, and before I could dial her number, I saw her whatsapp message saying “she has been called to start her SIWES at Baker Hughes” “Hello bae, did you see my message?, God has done it again” she said excited. “Yes I did, congrats dear” I replied in a low voice “Why is your voice so low, are you ok?, or are you jealous of me?” she asked jokingly “Kemi am 6weeks pregnant “I cut in “Preg..what? You must be joking right?” she asked “Do I sound like I am joking right now, I am very serious here and I don’t know what to do” I said “Are your parents aware of this” she asked “Of course they are, they just found out yesterday, and this house has been a boiling zone since yesterday” I said. “Jasmine, you need to be calm and strong, everything will be alright. It is well” Kemi said “You are asking me to do the impossible Kemi, I can’t be calm or strong, and nothing seems well too. My dad is asking me to marry Samuel and move out of his house or I should remove the thing inside my tummy. He doesn’t even refer to it has baby. This is the first time I will see my dad so heartless. I am so confused, please help me that is why I called” I explained sobbing “I wish I could help you, I wish I could take away your pain and confusion, but am as confused as you are right now. I know abortion is murder and it is not biblical, and marrying your r@pist is equally out of it. And keeping the baby is equally not easy, I think you need to let God guide you” she replied “God?, I don’t think he is interested in my matter atall, if he was he shouldn’t have allowed that r@pe to happen in the first place, and if atall he couldn’t prevent that, the least he could do for me is to never allow this baby to be conceived “ I said angrily. “Jasmine are you ready, let’s go” my dad called from the corridor “Almost ready, just 5 minutes more” I said “I have to go now, I will talk to you later” I said “Just take care of yourself please” she replied I dropped Kemi’s call and dressed up.
My dad already called Dr.Fayemi, our family doctor who was also his close friend, though he was on a short leave, he still agreed to come in today to attend to me. We got to the hospital as early as 7.30am, my dad dropped me and my mum and he promised to come pick us later in the evening. My mum was quiet throughout, she was equally sad and I know she could feel my pain, it is written all over her face, but she had no choice but to agree with her husband. I was admitted into the hospital in less than 1hour, and I was moved to the operating room for the abortion. Scared to my bone was an understatement, my mum was also afraid for me but she kept encouraging me that all will be well, and am in safe hands too, referring to Dr.Fayemi. The doctor also promised me that all will be fine, he promised to give me anesthesia so that I won’t feel so much pain. “The abortion didn’t take long” my mum said, but I gained consciousness after about 6hours later, my mum was right beside me holding my hand. I wonder what was running through her mind. “Are you awake now” she asked when she felt my hand squeeze hers “Yes, I am, how did it go?” I asked anxiously “The doctor said everything is fine, just calm down” she replied. My dad was outside talking with the doctor, I could hear their conversation from inside “How is my daughter, hope she is fine and everything is behind her now” my dad asked the doctor “She is okay, there is nothing to worry about, but I will suggest she sees a therapist for counselling and treatment. She might seem ok physically, but mentally she might be suffering.” He explained “Alright we will look into that, do you have any therapist that you can recommend for us?” he asked “Yes I do, when I get to my office I will give you the contact. And lest I forget, the foetus are two, twins I mean” he said “Twins!, wow thank God I forced her to abort it ,so my daughter would have been the mother of not one kid but two” he exclaimed I couldn’t control my tears, I just succeeded in killing two innocent babies. “God forgive me if you can” I mumbled “Can she go home today” my mum asked the doctor “Yes she can, get this prescribed drugs in the pharmacy and she will be discharged.” “Okay” my mum collected the prescription and left.
I was discharged few minutes after, though I complained about abdominal pain which the doctor said is normal and that the drugs prescribed will reduce the pain and help me heal faster. We got home and I just went straight to my room, and locked myself inside. I wept and cried for forgiveness, “I need your mercy oh lord. help me if it is not too late” I cried. I didn’t know when I slept off, I woke up to urinate and discovered that my bed was socked with blood, I feel so weak and the pain in my stomach was beyond description.” What is happening to me, is this normal too” I asked myself. As each second pass, I feel more weak, I tried to shout for help but i couldn’t even hear my own voice, I reached for my phone and dialed my mums number, and that was the last thing I remembered.
I woke up in the hospital, my mum was beside me crying, “What is happening here, why is she crying as if someone died” I thought. “Thank you lord” my mum shouted when she noticed that I was awake “Doctor! doctor! She’s awake” she shouted as she rushed out The doctor came in, it was that new doctor I met the first day that I came for checkup, Dr Chris was written on his white coat, and I guess that should be his name. He did some examination, pressed my abdomen and asked me what the level of pain I feel is on a scale of 1 to 10, where 10 means the highest and 1 is the lowest. The pain I feel was around 4 and he said that is still okay. I still don’t know what was going on, I was so confused. When the doctor was done I asked him what was going on with me. He sat down and gave me the shock of my life. “There was a number of complication during your abortion procedures, and you were rushed to the hospital unconscious, you have lost a lot of blood due to hemorrhage and we needed to do a blood transfusion.” He explained “Hemorrhage…what is that” I asked curiously “It is heavy bleeding from the uterus, and yours was so serious we need to carry out a surgery to stop it, and you also had a perforated uterus, which may have been the cause of the bleeding. The perforation might have been caused by one of the instrument used during the abortion procedure. And am sorry to say that the perforation was so severe that we needed to carryout hysterectomy” he explained “Which one is hysterectomy again doctor, please explain in terms that I can understand. Am an engineer not a doctor? “I said “hysterectomy simply means the removal of uterus, which will make it impossible for you to have children In future.” He said “What!,” I exclaimed. “ This only happen in very few cases, I mean the hysterectomy but am sorry that was the only option left to save your life, and after the operation, you have been in a slight coma for 4days now” he added “Save my life you said, you guys should have just left me to die in peace” I said crying “Don’t say that, there is still hope for the stump, it can still grow to become a tree again” he said “Please go away, I don’t want to hear any bull dog story. I need sometime alone” I replied angrily This is finally the end of the road for me, how could I continue to live after this.
“Am going to arrest that boy, he will suffer the same pain my daughter went through, he can’t just go scot-free ,he must be punished “ my dad was telling my mum as they were about to enter my room in the hospital. “Dad make sure you take responsibility for this just like you promised” I shouted as I cried at the same time, and then I woke up still crying. OMG! It was just a dream, but it felt so real. “Thank God it was just a dream” I shouted. I stood up from my bed and started worshipping God…..
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