MR BILLIONAIRES MRS CLUMSY
Episode 15
(What is Love)
~ Aaron ~
“This man!”, I groaned when Adam pulled me more closer to himself. “Adam, I swear I am gonna kill you, then resurrect and then kill you again if you don’t take your hands off me!”, I warned but he just sighed and tightened his hold. “Adam, for god’s sake get off me. I am not that types, I swear.”, I pushed him off, a little too forcefully might I add and he stumbled off the bed landing straight on floor groaning in pain.
“What man! I was having a good dream.”, He grunted and I rolled my eyes.
“Your wet dream might have caused my real r@pe, you r@pist! My poor v!rginity!”, I hissed at him while he doesn’t even bother to look up at me and continued rubbing his eyes.
“Then go to your own room! This is my room, my bed and I’ll do whatever heck I want!”, He said and climbed up the bed to sleep again.
“I would, if my wife hadn’t kicked me out”, I sighed frustratingly and got off from bed.
“Whatever! Just don’t disturb my sleep”, he waved me off and I scowled at him for the last time before going into bathroom.
I took a bath, slipped onto my clothes which consists of black polo shirt and black jeans.
After coming out I noticed Adam in sitting position. “It’s been nearly a week and you are still lingering in my room. What if Liza or Riley sees you?”, He questioned and I shrugged before going towards dressing table. Picking up my sneakers I slipped into them.
“I don’t know”, I replied while setting my hair. Satisfied, “See ya”, I said and got out of bedroom only to bump into a petite figure.
“Sorry, didn’t see you there”, Eva said while ignoring my gaze. I nodded and walked past her racing down stairs.
It’s like this since the next day we arrived here. Or should I say since the next night we arrived here. I agree I like her, or I really really like her but still I am doing my best to control my feelings whenever around her. We sometimes act like opposite poles of magnet that can’t resist each other and sometimes same poles that can’t stand together.
That day when she kicked me out of bedroom, I hoped she will call me back but she didn’t. And when Riley said that she couldn’t sleep due to horror movie we watched, I stayed with her in her room until she fell asleep and then went to Adam’s room, ignoring his complaining form of how I disturbed his beauty sleep.
Why can’t we be like normal couples?
Cause there is nothing normal between us!
It’s a contract marriage Aaron! Get that fact straight! Shut out your feelings and wait for one year to finish then you are free to work your ass off for your company again.
But office work doesn’t interest me now!
Then what interests you?
Her presence does, easily.
The things our brain easily gets and acts on, why can’t our mind be like that? Why can’t it accept that some things are impossible. Impossible to happen.
She loves someone else, and that hurts! That hurts badly.
I just hope she doesn’t have the power to break me cause if she does, I will be a mess once this one year is over.
I want myself back, the way I was before she came in my life. Life full of work. Life without any stress of personal life.
“AK! Come here! Let’s have breakfast!”, Riley’s voice caught my attention and I nodded before walking towards her.
“What’s there for breakfast?”, I asked sniffing the delicious smell.
“Uhh, I forgot. The names are damn confusing man!”, She whined and I chuckled.
“Sissy, c’mon! We will be late!”, Liza yelled and I saw all four coming downstairs.
“Hey bro!”, Riley greeted Adam and he passed her a smile. “Hi the three of you”, she added and they smiled before replying the same.
“C’mon, let’s finish breakfast and then we are off to explore Maldives”, Liza chirped and we sat down to have breakfast. Once finished, Adam got his camera, mobile phone and wallet, I too got my wallet and mobile phone and the ladies came with their purses and mobile phones.
We settled inside Yatch and sailed off towards capital city of Maldives, Malé.
When we reached on the shore, there was Honda pilot three row seated car already waiting for us. I took the keys from chauffeur and strolled towards driver seat.
“Are you allowed to drive here?”, Chloe asked.
“He is”, Riley replied and I nodded in confirmation.
I sat down on driver seat, the passenger side’s door opened revealing Adam’s grinning self and I rolled my eyes. But before he could sit, Liza pulled him back with her finger tips gripping his back collar. “Liz, leave me!”, He whined.
“No! It’s not your place to sit. You will sit on the backside with us. Sissy, c’mon go get your man!”, She ushered Eva and I felt heat crept onto my neck when she said the last sentence. Eva hesitantly walked front and sat beside me. Everyone sat down, Riley and Liza on the second row and Chloe with Adam on last row, looking hell uncomfortable.
“Let the fun begin!”, Liza fist bumped and we all chuckled at her excitement.
Our first spot was Hukuru miskii, an old mosque. Getting relaxed in that religious place for about one hour, our next spot was a popular diving centre.
“Okay, I am already freaked out so I am gonna pass it.”, Chloe said catching our attention.
“Aww, is little Chloe scared?”, Adam cooed.
“Shut up before I chop off your tongue and feed it to the sharks over there!”, She snapped pointing towards the vast sea before us.
“It will be fine, Chloe. Just give it a chance. You will love it.”, Eva said and we all nodded in agreement except Adam who had smirk plastered on his face.
“Ohh please, easy for the one who once did it with her boyfriend!”, Chloe snapped back but bit her tongue once she realised what she said.
There was a moment of silence, everyone looking back and forth between me and Eva. I covered my dropped mood with stern face.
“Is everyone ready, sir?”, One of the staff member asked and I nodded.
We all stood at the edge, “On my count, Jump! One, two, three- Jump!”, And we did, only to be welcomed by the new world that has no lies, fake people, or money minded businessmen…….. Like me.
I was about to dive further when noticed Eva’s hesitant frame glancing around. She looked scared, her hands were shaking and she was taking deep breaths from her oxygen tank.
Shoving all disappointed feelings, and focusing on the first girl I have ever liked, I swimmed towards her and laced my finger with hers. She looked at me and I squeezed her hand in assurance, she nodded back.
With her hand still in my grip, I dived deep inside causing the swarm of fishes to disheveled because of disturbance. Everything was colourful, an epitome of beauty we can call. There was calmness and serenity around us, a song of silence playing in the background. Her hand in mine, her trust on me and the crown ring in her finger shining due to water, a bubble of happiness burst inside me.
She kept touching the fishes, plants, shrubs, around her. I guided her what to touch and what to not. She followed me obediently.
When she squeezed my hand I turned towards her. She nodded at my back and I turned back only to notice Chloe and Adam in same way like us, holding hands and him guiding her. I smiled.
We continued our exploration, until it was time to go back. When we climbed up the Yatch, Eva throwed herself on floor and took a deep breath after taking out her oxygen mask.
“That was awesome!”, Chloe chirped. Everyone was already there, so I concluded that we were last to come back. “The Colors!”, She sighed dreamily.
“Yeah, the Colors”, Adam sighed too and I sensed a glint of sadness in his voice. Riley placed a comforting hand on his shoulder and he smiled at her.
“What happened?”, Chloe asked.
“Nothi-”
“I have deuteranopia, a type of color blindness that causes difficulty to distinguish between green-yellow-red. Nothing else.”, He shoved his hands away like it’s nothing important. I saw Chloe’s eyes getting wide before they went back to normal.
“Ohh”, she mumbled. “I will go and get changed”, and she dashed inside with the speed of lightening.
“So much to behave normal.”, Liza muttered. “It makes you unique Adam. So cheer up and let’s enjoy”, Liza squealed and she too bounced inside.
“I once had a friend who was able to see the world only in black and white. You are much lucky. So don’t feel sad, there’s nothing to be sad about it. Life is to forget and move on, you are a happy person and I hope this little thing doesn’t eat you in inside. Be happy as you always are!”, Eva said caressing his shoulder before smiling at him once and going inside to change.
“You have a great wife, Aaron”, Adam said and I chuckled little.
“Now, c’mon let’s go!”, Riley butted in.
After the scuba diving, we headed to museum. Spending some time there, we then did some street shopping.
“Aaron, take us to the fish market.”, Eva said and before I could say anything everyone asked “Why?”, In unison with scrunched face showing their disinterest and confusion.
“Who wants to have fish in dinner?”, She asked and everyone slumped back in seat with defeated looks.
The car’s engine ignited, “Yay, dead fishes here we come”, Adam said with fake enthusiasm and Chloe beside him snickered.
“I am not coming out! I swear I will puke once I smell it!”, Riley said with disgusted face.
“Sure. Stay here till we come back”, I said and guided all of us inside market.
Eva was searching for grouper, swordfish, and jobfish as Kavya asked her to buy, and I too was doing same to help her. But I don’t know a thing!
“Huttaa!”, A lady scolded and slapped Adam’s hand away when he was trying to touch a fish. He pouted and huffed. Sticking his tongue at her childishly he stomped past us whining, “I was just seeing if it’s alive or dead!”, While throwing his hands in air.
“He is such a kid!”, Chloe giggled and our head snapped towards her. She stopped and cleared her throat.
“What? C’mon, complete your fish hunt and let’s go back”.
Once done buying the fishes, we travelled back to beach house. Until we reached it was already evening.
“I am gonna sleep!”, Liza exclaimed.
“And I am gonna take a long shower”, Chloe said and they both climbed upstairs.
“Ma’am, you brought the fishes?”, Kavya asked while coming out of kitchen.
“Yeah, Kavya. And what I told you to call me?”, Eva asked with fake anger.
“Eva”, Kavya admitted shyly.
“Good. Now take this to kitchen and wait for me. I want to help you”, Eva said and went upstairs after giving her the paper bag of fishes.
“AK, it’s time for sunset. Let’s go to our regular spot?”, Riley asked, her eyes shining with hope.
“Sure. Adam do you want to?”, I asked Adam only to notice his disturbed expression.
“No. But can I have a talk with you before you go?”, He raised his eyebrows and I nodded in confusion.
We headed upstairs to his room. I entered first and he later before closing door behind him.
“What you wanted to talk about?”.
“You like Eva?”
“Yeah, so?”, I asked. I am fed up of denying my feelings infront of anyone. Specifically Adam, who keeps bugging me about it.
“So stop building Riley’s hopes”, he said and my eyebrows furrowed together.
“Don’t play, ‘I don’t know what you are talking about’ card, Aaron! Can’t you see she likes you, or should I say loves you. Do you know how broken my little sister was when she found out that you married someone else. Still I didn’t tell her the truth about this contract marriage because I respect our friendship. What happens between us, stays between us. But if because of your ignorance my little sister’s eyes tear out, I swear I will kill you!”, He gritted and I stood there shocked.
“When did you learn about this?”, I asked still not believing.
“Last year of high school when you denied to be her prom date”, he said and I gasped at the piece of information I was fed with.
“But I thought she was always joking cause of my uncomfortableness around women”, I mumbled to myself.
“Sadly she was not. And she is still hoping”, he said.
“Even after knowing that I am married?”
“No, but after seeing the space between you and your so called wife, she did”, he said.
“Why did you hide it from me for so long?”, I asked feeling agitated.
“Her promise stopped me”, he answered and I sighed.
“Now what?”.
“Do something that will make her believe that you are no longer available. And she should forget about you!”, He said and I nodded.
“I am sorry”, I don’t know why but I felt a need to say it. Adam loves Riley with every piece of his and seeing his little sister’s heart broken is something not any brother wants. Though they are twins with just a minute apart of Adam coming out first.
“It’s okay. It’s not your mistake.”, He smiled and I reciprocated.
Coming out of room, I walked downstairs. Riley was waiting for me in living room, watching TV. “You came”, she chirped and switced off TV, before standing and turning towards me. I noticed Eva glancing at us from kitchen before going back to whatever she was doing.
Feeling a need to do this, I asked Riley to wait for me by showing her my forefinger and walked inside kitchen. Eva again glanced at me and then back down to continue her chopping. Entering inside kitchen, I wrapped my arms around Eva’s waist, back hugging her and she tensed at the contact. A low gasp escaped her mouth. I was just going to back hug and then let her go, but the way my body reacts on every touch of her’s, I couldn’t help but nuzzle my face in the crook of her neck.
“Wh-what a-are you do-doing?”, She stuttered and I smirked at the achievement of making her nervous.
“Just r0mancing with my wife”, I replied and heard Kavya chuckled. “I am going out to see the sunset. You wanna join?”, I asked and she gulped before shooking her head. “Fine, I will be back soon”, I whispered and pulled myself back. Her tensed form relaxed as she heaved a shaky breath.
Coming out of kitchen, I noticed Riley’s disappointed face and pained eyes.”Let’s go?”, I asked ignoring her behaviour and she seems to snap out of it, she blinked and passed me a forced smile.
We came out, and strolled towards our regular spot where we used to spend time during our teenage.
“Isn’t it beautiful?”, She sighed rubbing her hands together. It’s little bit chilly today.
“Yeah, it is”, I agreed.
“I want to say something”, she said after the moment of silence.
“Go on”, I encouraged, though I know what she is gonna say.
“I think you both don’t love each other. It’s just an act!”, She said, not a question but a statement that she is confirmed about.
Okay I admit, I thought she was gonna confess her feelings.
“What is love, Riley?”, I asked.
“Wanting something you can’t have”, she replied and turned towards me.
“True, wanting something you can’t have”, I said, then glanced at her. “But still wanting”, added at last and heard her sigh.
“So? What’s the conclusion? Being unhappy till the end?”, She c0cked an eyebrow.
“Uh-huh”, I shooked my head. “Being happy in
their happiness”, I said and she chuckled humorlessly.
“Now being poetic, Mr. King? Easy to say difficult to do”, she hissed.
“Once again, what is love?”.
“I already answered”, she replied stubbornly.
“Loving someone means accepting someone with their flaws . Loving someone means, even after knowing that they are lying you still pretend to not know the truth. Loving someone means, placing your heart in their hands and allowing them to crumple it however they want. Loving someone means, giving them the power to either break you mercilessly or make you lovingly. Do you love someone like that, Riley? That imagining life without them seems impossible?”, I asked and she shooked her head.
“No”, she whispered, honesty clearly visible in her voice.
“Congrats, you are not in deep love. You still can get over it. Just think of your family, your career, about you and see moving on will be as easy as taking a step further”, I said.
“Yeah, like a baby trying to take it’s first step?”, She challenged with a smirk.
“But still it succeeds”, I replied and she smiled.
We enjoyed the sunset and headed back to the beach house. “You love her that much?”, Her question caught me off guard and I stopped on my tracks.
“Huh?”.
“Do you love Eva that much?”, She asked.
“Why you ask?”, I countered back.
“Just. No one can talk so deeply about love unless they are loving someone that much.”, She said and my mind pondered over it more than necessary.
Shoving off the different feeling, I shrugged and walked past her.
The moment I entered, my eyes searched for her . Once they found her, my heart beat fastened. Kavya elbowed her and she glanced at me. A small smile played on her lips bringing smile to my face too.
“Go get fresh. Dinner is ready”, she said avoiding my eye contact and I nodded before going upstairs.
We had dinner in peaceful silence. Finishing the dinner, we walked upstairs. I was about to head towards Adam’s room when Eva’s hand on my arm stopped me. I raised my eyebrows and glanced around.
“Liza is not around”, I said and she shooked her head.
“Let’s go to sleep”, she said and I nodded before turning but she chuckled and dragged me inside the room she was sleeping in from last week.
“You can sleep here. On your side of bed and me on mine side of bed. Okay?”, She said and my eyes widened in surprise.
“Really?”, I asked for confirmation.
“Yeah”, she chuckled. “Either way it’s your room. You have full right. Now c’mon, let’s go to sleep”, she said and walked towards cupboard. Pulling out extra sheets and pillows she climbed up bed and made pillow wall, the way she calls it.
“Bad night, sweet nightmares, Aaron”, she said before pressing the lights off and covering herself with duvet.
“Bad night, sweet nightmares, Eva”, I replied with a big grin not realising how much I missed it.
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“It’s boating time”, Liza squealed.
It’s close to afternoon and we planned to go for boating and fishing after lunch.
“How do I look?”, Chloe asked spinning around, a bright smile on her face. She was wearing a bright red knee length dress.
“Is it red?”, Adam asked focusing little bit more.
“Yeah”, she nodded.
“Then you totally look like a Santa Clause”, he commented.
Expecting a snarky comment back, Chloe did opposite. She smiled at him and asked us again. I noticed Adam’s clenched jaw and fiery eyes. The look he was wearing was not at all his usual self.
“You look great”, Liza said.
We all headed out and sat inside 6 seaters boat. The travel till the middle of sea was silent. An awkward silence might I add. Two more boats filled with bodyguards following us.
I was driving the boat, so avoiding Riley’s and Eva’s eyes was easy. Riley and Eva doing the same. Chloe avoiding Adam’s eyes but contrary to us he was boaring holes, daring Chloe to look into his eyes. Liza, not having anyone to be as excited as her, her excitement died down too and she sat silently.
“We can fish here”, I said and everyone came out of their trance. I passed each a fishing rod and we dipped it in a deep sea, hoping for a fish to catch.
“Let’s make it fun. Shared on WhatsApp by martino. The one who catches most of the fishes will win”, Liza clapped her hands in excitement.
“Yeah sure”, Riley said trying to be as excited as her but failed miserably.
So the competition that no one wants started. Cue to me failing miserably, cause it’s been two hours and I haven’t catch a fly! Everyone had their score like 2 to 3 whereas I was still at zero.
“One more!”, Chloe squealed showing us her fish. But at the same time, Adam pulled out his rod, a long triple the size of fish that Chloe had, hanging on his rod. He smirked, expecting an eyeroll or a comment, Chloe again did the opposite by offering him a small smile.
With a snap Adam dropped his rod in sea. I knew this was gonna happen. Everyone gasped, well except me and Riley ofcourse.
“Why did you do that?”, Chloe asked.
“Don’t pollute the sea.”, Liza said at the same time and pulled the rod back as it was stuck in the railing of boat. Freeing the fish back, she kept rod in the boat.
“Don’t fvcking pity me! You get that!?”, He yelled causing her to flinch in fear.
“What are you talking about?”, She asked.
“You think I didn’t noticed. Since the time you learnt about my color blindness, you kept smiling at me or should I say sadly smiling at me. Not replying with any snarky comment or an eyeroll, do you think I wouldn’t notice?”, He yelled. “I am not blind! So stop pitying me, you get that!? I just couldn’t decipher some colors that doesn’t mean I can’t see at all!”, He continued.
“Calm down, Adam”, Riley said placing a hand on his shoulder as he was literally hovering over Chloe, with his arms beside, trapping her in her place.
He shoved Riley’s hand away and signaled the guards to come closer.
“Something wrong, sir?”, Troy asked. Ignoring Riley’s protest, Adam jumped in the boat next to us, in which guards came.
“Take me back”, he ordered and they nodded. With a last glance and nod at me, they turned the boat back towards beach house.
“I think we should go back too”, Eva said and we all agreed.
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The moment we came back to shore, Chloe jumped out and ran after Adam who was about to enter inside house.
“Adam! Stop!”, She said while grabbing his arm. He stopped, turned, jerked her hand away and continued walking inside. She entered after him.
“I am sorry”, we heard Chloe saying. “I agree, I felt little bit sad for you. It’s because I have never seen someone with color blindness. It was new for me, may it seem very normal for others but I have never heard about it. I mean, I have heard but never seen or talked with someone having this. I am sorry, that I behaved like this. I really am”, she pleaded, her eyes welled up with unshed tears.
“Get over it already. I don’t love you okay”, Adam said out of nowhere and her eyebrows furrowed.
“Huh?”
“I know you want this”, he waved his hand up and down on himself. “But can’t have. Still get over it”, he smirked c0ckily and we all chuckled over his sudden change of behaviour. His real self was back.
Chloe getting the cue, rolled her eyes. “Oh please, I have seen better.”, Eyeing him up and down, “Much better”, she added with a nod. He smiled, she smiled too. “And one more thing, I look hot in red! Get your facts straight, dumb a$s”, she smirked and he rolled his eyes. The environment was back to normal, between them but ours was still awkward.
“Still, baby girl. You know you crave for this”, he again did the same.
“Urghh, why in the hell did I pitied you?”, She groaned.
“Because you care for me”, he cooed.
“You know what, Mr. Davis?”, She asked and he raised his eyebrows. “I hate the fact that I pitied you, but I love the fact that I hate you”, with that she stomped upstairs.
“Noooooo! You hate that you love me”, He sang loudly.
“Stop obsessing over me, Adam. I know you can’t help it, but before landing in asylum, try to stop it. You know, I care for…….”, She trailed still continuing walking upstairs. Once reached at top she turned, smirking she kept her hands on her hips, “For asylum patients that they will have to deal with you. Dumbwit”, she finished, turned and walked off.
Liza wolf whistled or should I say tried to as she coughed vigorously after that. “Imma stop doing that. I am hungry, Kavya!”, And she run inside kitchen.
“Everyone is weird”, Riley mumbled and she too walked upstairs, leaving me and Eva in defening silence.
“I am hungry too…. Kavya!”, With the same speed she too ran towards kitchen.
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After dinner we strolled around beach for sometime. It was 9:00 right now.
“Let’s surf?”, Adam asked.
“There are no waves”, I deadpanned. Sea was calm and quiet.
“True”, he said and sprawled on chair.
“I will go inside, I am feeling thirsty”, Eva muttered and went back inside.
We continued chatting and strolling around accompanied by some songs that Adam played on his speaker by connecting his mobile to it.
“SEA……. HERE I COME!”, I heard a loud screeching sound and turned towards the source of it. Eva was running hastily towards us, her hands up in air and she was giggling and squealing loudly.
Her running was in zig zag style. She run past me and we all turned to watch her only to dump her head in……… Bucket filled with water?
I thought she wanted to swim?
“Ahh save me, save me! I am drowning, I am drowning”, she yelled after pulling her head out and after completing the rant she again put her head back down in bucket.
“Sissy!”
“Eva!”
“Eva?”
And we ran towards her. Chloe pulled her head back and Eva sighed in relief before grinning like an idiot. “Thanks Mitch, my lifeguard. You saved me”, she said wrapping her hands around Chloe’s neck and pulling her forcefully for hug.
“Can’t. Breath”, Chloe coughed.
“Leave her. She is mine to strangle to death!”, Adam said and pulled Chloe back. Chloe glared at him but he ignored.
“Ohh Matt, you are here too”, she turned towards me and I stumbled back, afraid of the look she was carrying.
“Who is Matt?”, Adam asked.
“Him”, Eva pointed at me.
“She is talking about Zac Efron from Baywatch.”, Liza clarified and Adam burst out laughing.
“He? Zac Efron?”, Saying this he again continued laughing. I gave him a death glare and he stopped abruptly before covering his incoming laugh with a cough.
“I miss you, L-“, before she could finish, Chloe stopped her by covering her mouth.
“What happened to he- Ow!”, Chloe winced as Eva bited her palm. Eva giggled.
“Sowwwy”, she pouted holding her ears with her hands.
“Is she high?”, Adam frowned.
“No, I am low”, Eva giggled again.
“I mean is she drunk?”, He asked us again.
“No I am sober!”, She snorted.
“Yeah, so much for being sober!”, He snapped back.
“No, little less for being drunk”, Eva replied after thinking for minute.
“Is she replying me with antonyms?”, He asked.
“No I am replying you with synonyms”, and again she giggled.
What the hell happened to her?
“Eva, get up”, I ordered in stern voice.
“Aaron, sit down”, she said in same voice and giggled. She is adorable.
Stop it Aaron!
“C’mon Eva, let’s head inside”, I said and pulled her up while grasping on her arms.
“No…. I don’t want to.”, she whined. Ignoring her, I dragged her towards beach house.
“So stop time right here in the moonlight
‘Cause I don’t ever wanna close my eyes’ “, she said and I stopped on my tracks.
She tugged on my sleeves and I turned. Coming closer, she placed her hand on my cheek and caressed it lovingly. Her eyes held overflowing love, care and sadness.
“Without you, I feel broke
Like I’m half of a whole
Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold
Without you, I feel torn
Like a sail in a storm
Without you, I’m just a sad song
I’m just a sad song”, her voice was sweet, a dedication in them. An essence of honesty making them as pure as Jesus Christ. Something inside me doubled up with happiness but something else broke, knowing that whatever she is saying is not for me. Never will be!
Getting her hand off my cheek, I continued dragging her inside. Everyone else followed behind.
“She ate this. These are drugged”, Adam said picking up the empty packet of cupcakes. “I am sorry, I just brought them with me here.”, He apologized looking guilty.
“It’s fine”, I said and pulled Eva with me upstairs.
“But I don’t want to!”, She whined when I pushed her inside and closed door behind us.
“Shhh, now go to sleep”, I ordered her sternly but she stomped her foot in response.
Dragging her towards bed, I made her lie down and she immediately snuggled more in mattress. “This is comfy”, she giggled and I smiled.
“Bad ni-”
“Good night, sweet dreams, Liam”, she mumbled cutting me off.
You know that something which broke inside me has now completely shattered. And it was nothing but hope, a hope that she will like me back. But she will not.
These past two months I thought I have some place in her heart, but no. Her heart still carries his memories. Memories for her, nightmares for me. After spending so much time together, sharing such beautiful intimate moments, helding those longing stares, I was in an illusion that there will be something more between us. But there is nothing.
Therefore I need to stop myself. Stop my growing feelings for her. She can’t be mine, she don’t want to. And I can’t give her the power, the power to break me. She can’t have it. SHE WILL NEVER HAVE IT!
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Loving someone is easy, Loving someone who doesn’t love you back is hard.
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