Episode 21

By Amah’s Heart.

Sunday came and we were over at Ohio’s house.
It was indeed a nice place to chill out.
It felt like I was in another world when I walked into his place.
He has a cook, gardner who also cleanse the compound, including the swimming pool.
His domestic staffs look well and cultured. If I happen to meet them outside the house I will mistake them for a high class workers.

He showed us round and asked us to feel at home.
Joe was over at his mini bar, situated close to the big dinning hall.

I took a lone steps to the basement and stood there, looking out into the big compound and to the swimming pool.

Melinda and Cole who came around were out at the pool side with a Chapman in hand, sitting at the edge of the pool, dangling their feet in the water while relaxing and sipping their drinks. They look like new lovers as they talk quietly, fall on each others body and laugh like children.

I smile as I watch them from the glass basement house which was above the building.

I could have joined them but I was too shy to be on a swimming suit.
Melinda has a slender, fine toned body but I’m neither slim nor fat.
I’m just in between the two. people will say I’m chubby but maybe they are confused on where exactly to place my shape or they are worried I will take offense if they call me fat.
I don’t mind where they decided to place me, be it slim or fat. I’m comfortable in my skin and shape. I’m also curvey which gives me an edge.
I’m not too tall, unlike Melinda who got the height.
This is where another confusion cripped in. My height 6.4. they say is an average height. Is very funny how everything about me is not in perfect order. I’m neither slim nor fat, neither tall nor short. I’m Just in between everything.
Even my life is neither fair nor harsh. Sometimes good things happen and another time bad things happen. My life is not close to perfect but is far from worst.

After yesterday drama with JoJo, I can’t specifically say if Ohio was happy or not.
He acted well and laugh along with everyone but whenever he looks at me all i see is disappointment in his eyes. Or could it be my mind set?

I did not know that JoJo was responsible for me and Frankie’s separation. Back then, I couldn’t figure out why Frankie suddenly changed towards me . His attitude of a different person and later told me he can’t continue with the relationship anymore. He broke up with me because of lies that JoJo told him about me and even set me up just to achieve her selfish and wicked aim.
It was after Frankie I met Richard thinking he was my last bustop but he got tired of me with more spicy lies from JoJo and ended the relationship.
JoJo came after Ohio and couldn’t succeed she went straight to Silas who I don’t care what he does with his life.

JoJo chewed more than she can swallowed and deserves the beating she got from me if not more.

Ohio probably thinks otherwise because he made it clear to me that he hates drama and when we talked during our Friday night at my place, he said one of the reasons he loves me is because I’m reserved and calm. I do things moderately and not out of proportion.
He said even my dressing, my make up and other activities are in order. It may not be perfect all the time and he is okay with that.
He asked me what I love about him and I gladly poured it out.

But seeing my violent side with JoJo may have Ohio thinking otherwise.
He was mad at me during my fight with Melinda at the resort Beach and wanted me to learn how to control my emotions.

He obviously do not like seeing violent women, is probably the reason why I feel he is acting cold around me.
Even after he dropped me off at my place last night, he did not have much to say and never bother to come inside.
He did not give me a goodnight kiss just a cheek peck which was better than nothing.
Melinda and Joe drove back to my dad’s house leaving me and Ohio yesterday and it was as if they shouldn’t have gone.
Ohio coldness got me worried and I wonder what exactly he is thinking.

I wish I can read his mind to know what he has in there.

He was downstairs with my brother Joe, at the mini bar, watching a soccer game with their drinks.
He has forgotten that I even exist. Thinking about him now makes me sad.

Instead of feeling pity all alone here, it will be better I join Melinda and Cole at the pool.

I decided to wait for sometime and watch the couple before leaving.
Melinda was on a bikini, Cole was on a short with singlet.
Melinda dived into the water, she was a good swimmer, after sometime she resurface out from the water.
She asked Cole to join her but he was comfortable sitting by the side and watching her swim.
Melinda insisted, Cole later pull off his singlet and join Melinda in the water.

After few seconds inside the water, he lifted his head and exhaled.
Melinda laugh and asked him to dive in again.
She was obviously enjoying the moment.

I wanted to join them but I maybe interrupting the two lovers.
Three is a crowd, maybe I will stay here for sometime before going down to get useful and occupy my mind.

As I stood their watching them, a noise startled me from behind.
I turned and it was Ohio, walking towards me with two glass of drink.
He handed a cup to me, and held his own.

“Becca, what are you doing here all by yourself? I actually thought you were out… at the pool side with your sister. I was occupied playing a video game with Joe and didn’t know you were up here. What is the problem Becca? Why are you excluding yourself and not joining the fun? Everyone seem to be having a nice time except you. Dora, my chef placed some food on the dining, just in case you feel like eating. She also has some new recipes that Lili thought her and she will be happy to share them with you… in case you are interested. Tell me what is bothering you…

He was standing very close to me by now.
I took a sip from the drink before replying him.

“I didn’t know where to fit in. I don’t want to interrupt Melinda and her fiance. You and Joe were busy with soccer game when I left. I have walked round and decided to stay up here. Is a clear view and I enjoy watching Melinda and Cole. I…I also thought you maybe angry with me over yesterday’s drama. I sensed your cold attitude ever since last night when you dropped me off at home. I guess you are disappointed in me. I’m sorry if you are… JoJo got to the bad side of me. I hate to be taken for granted because of my my quiet personality. She was riding on my intelligent and felt like I can’t do anything to her. There was no better way to deal with her except through that means. I only hate the fact that you are disappointed but I don’t regret putting JoJo in her place. If that makes you angry with me then I’m sorry… even though you never said a word concerning that.

I was still talking when he dropped his drink on a nearby table. He collected mine and dropped there.
He gently cupped my face with his hand and k!ss me on my forehead
He never said anything about yesterday or about JoJo, all he did was to k!ss me.

He made me relaxed back on the glass wall and continue to hug me until all my emotions welled up.

I heard my brother calling him and we both straightened. He arranged my hair and drew me to his chest which was beating with speed.

“I want you Becca…so much that I’m going to go crazy. I’m trying to control it but failing woefully.

He said while holding me very close.

“Why are you holding back, you can have me all to yourself. You set my whole body on fire with your every touch Ohio. I also want yo…

My brother called out again, this time he was closer to the basement.

He loosened up, took a deep breath, readjust his shirt. He took the wine and handed mine to me.
He drank deeply from his cup, I guess he was trying to calm his raging emotions.
He took me by the hand and was about to match out, my brother was already up.

“Ooh, i’m sorry! hope I didn’t interrupt anything? I discovered a table tennis by your cottage. Cole is interested in playing after I asked him. I just wanted to know if you are in. Man… there is a lot of things to engage here. I remember some years ago, i wanted to build a little cot house outside my main building where I can chill out or play tennis but my wife, Cassie wanted a garden. I cultivated the land for her, bought bags of fertilizer… including horse poo and rotten vegs. I spread it over the land… watered it and allow it to settle in. My wife planted different fruit, vegetables and used one part of the land for flowers. And before a year we had organic food. The tomatoes is as big as my fist. We also have pineapple, citrus fruits and vegetables. I was not into the idea of owning a garden when she initially came up with the plan but now I’m glad I agreed to it. My two little kids love the garden. Jeni is 4years and Jon is Just a year plus. Ohio, I saw your large garden filled with different rose flowers, in the future maybe you should consider adding vegetables and fruits to it. You will be glad that you did. It can be tasking when it comes to maintaining it but with time you will feel delighted.

Ohio nodded with a smile as we all walk down.
Dora, Ohio’s cook was setting more food on the table which smell so nice. There were different plates of food and fruits cut in beautiful shapes and placed on the dining.

The woman, who was neatly dressed, her hair covered properly turned to Ohio and said with a smile.

“Sir, the food are all set up. I hope your guest will enjoy the meal. I will be close by just in case you need any other thing…or do you need me to add any thing to the table?

“Thanks Dora, that will be all for now.

Dora took a bow and left. She behaves like she was schooled on being a chef. Just like Ohio, everything she does was well coordinated.

Ohio suggested we eat first and I was glad he did because the well arranged food on the big dinning was already whispering my name.

Melinda tied up a towel below her waist, she had being swimming and even after Cole fled the water.
We all sat to eat after Joe said a short prayer. Melinda, the over active one was the first to start passing round the food.
Ohio looked at me as I eat quietly.

I wanted to devour all the delicious food in front of me but my home training wouldn’t let me.

We played few other games together after eating, the only one I did not join was getting into the pool on a bikini. Melinda suggested but I turned down the offer.
She can flex her good shape and body openly, I can be very shy when it comes to that, especially with Ohio looking me all over with hunger in his eyes.

We had a good, satisfying time in Ohio’s place and all thanks to him.
Joe, Melinda and Cole later left that evening.
Ohio asked me to spend little more time with him, he will go and drop me off later.

I also wanted to stay even without him asking. I wanted to have a good quiet time with him.
After everyone was gone, he took me up and straight to his big bedroom.
His master bedroom was as big as my sitting room. He said he wanted to show me something.

I knew what he wanted. well, so I thought.
I also wanted the same but patiently waited because he was a total different man who takes his time in doing everything.

He moved close to a wall and switched on a button, the room light color changed automatically.
What I thought was an ordinary wall began to show up different faces.
It was like an album with people in it.
He had a remote control

He pointed at everyone that pops up.

“This are my family! That’s my Dad. Followed by my Mom and that’s Klint my brother and his dog. that’s Natalie, she suffered a cerebral palsy during her early age. My parents tackled it with everything to make her associate and become like a normal child. And I’m happy to tell you that she is alright. Or let me say still in the process of full recovery. But if you are just meeting her for the first time you won’t know that she had cerebral palsy. Natalie is strong, smart and never allowed her condition to weigh her down. She is very beautiful too and creative. My Dad opened a knitting and craft shop for her after she finished from school, where she got to teach many people different craft. I’m very proud of her, she has alot of friends who also learns from her. She is my only little sister and we speak often over the phone.

My mind went to Lili. Could Natalie be the Lili that he often speak to. I decided to ask.

“I guess Natalie is the Lili that you usually talk about??.

Ohio smile and said.

“No, Natalie is not Lili. We call Natalie Rosie because she loves rose flowers and still do. We built a flower house filled with roses for her and she loves picking flowers while growing up. She made me love flowers which was Why I have many around here. Lili is a total different person. She is a great cook and home maker. She is loving and does not joke with me, neither do I joke with her. Lili is part of me and you will be meeting her soon. A step at a time…

We stayed talking about his family until he looked at the time and exclaimed.

It was almost 9pm. He wanted to go and drop me.
I thought the reason Why he took me to his bedroom was to enjoy the evening in the arm of each other.
I didn’t know it was to show me his visual family album. I enjoyed every bit of it though but I still wanted what was on my mind.
He stired up the whole emotion in me at the basement and now he wanted to go and drop me off.
He also wanted me but was holding back. For whatever reason I can’t say

I went to him as he stood and was putting off the wall gallery.

“Maybe, I should spend the night with you here…it will be fun….

I said while unbuttoning his shirt and pushing him gently to the bed.

He sat hard on the bed, the remote control fell off from his hand.

I succeeded in unbuttoning all his shirt without him stopping me midway. I gently pushed him to the bed and sat on him

My cloths were going off gradually in no time.
As I lowered my hands to his belted pant trouser to unhook it he turned me over and stood up.

I watched him combed his hand into his head, rushed to the bathroom and I can hear splash of water.
I went to meet him there, he stood splashing water on his head and face.
I asked him if he was alright. He stopped and stare at the mirror, took a white towel and began cleaning his wet head and face without a word.

I can see his bare chest going up and down. He was still in his trouser.
I coiled my hand around his chest while standing behind and k!ssing his back.
As I tried to remove his belt again he stopped me.

“Becca, I’m sorry. We can’t do this. I don’t think I’m fully ready for It. Maybe not now. Please. I know you want me, Becca….I also do… even more but this is not the time. I’m sorry I caught you off guard, if I didn’t do that I may regret my actions later. I love you and don’t want just a night stand…I want to spend every day of my life with you. I just want you to know that you means so much to me. I want us to wait till we get married.

He led me back to the room and grabbed his shirt from the ground where it laid carelessly and tossed it to his wardrobe side.
Ohio took out another ironed shirt and wore.
I also dressed up properly and allowed him take my hands into his own.
We went out and straight to his car.
It was 9:16pm when we left and arrived at my place 10: 54pm.
He looked shy or ashamed to look at me but still managed to give me a goodnight peck.
He stayed in his car and waited as I went inside before he turned and speed off.

Within the week, I saw him twice at work. He was back with his corporate appearance.
He checked up on me during his second day within that week and we even had lunch together.
We talked about everything but none of us mentioned the Sunday night.

I was even beginning to think that JoJo is probably right about his sexuality.
What if Ohio is truly impotent like JoJo makes me believe?
I still don’t understand how he manages to say no to a woman who he claims to love.
Whenever the going is good and I began to think I have gotten him down that will be the time he would break loose and give unnecessary excuses.

Maybe Ohio doesn’t have an active manhood because if he does he wouldn’t have allowed me to leave his place that night or the night we spent together at my place doing only hugging and talking until he got tired and slept off.

Saturday came and he was over at my place to take me to see Lili.

I was all dressed up before he arrived because I was so determined to know who this Lili was.
We have gotten over the last Sunday night and was back with our usual self.

I was doing most of the talking while he drove.
He turned to the road that looks familiar.
I know the road very well but didn’t say anything.
He drove until we got to a big restaurant.
I was shock as the place stare back at me.

It was my favorite restaurant, where I usually come to dine with Richard and it was the same place Richard brought me to before breaking up with me.

Ever since then I never stepped foot there again, coming back after staying away for so long brought back lots of unforgettable memory.

That night was like a suicidal night, my heart was shattered into pieces. I thought I was going to die but here I am again back to the same place but with a better man in my life whom I’m not yet sure if what JoJo said about his manh00d is true or not.

He received a call again from Lili and was saying “yes…yes” during the short conversation. He laughed, maybe Lili said something funny.
I felt a tingle of jealous with the friendly way he freely speaks to Lili.

I guess he wants us to eat first before we continue to Lili’s place. But despite the place used to be my favorite restaurant, I was not hungry.

I breathed deeply as Ohio took my hand.
He asked me if i was alright, I nodded even as the whole memory of that place came rushing back.
I asked him what we are doing in a restaurant, if he wants to eat or what.

He replied

” we are here to see Lili. Becca, this was our initial plan…we both agreed on it today and you have looked forward to meeting Lili. Why are you suddenly acting uninterested and cold?

He squeezed my hand gently to make me feel comfortable.
I followed him quietly without another word, wondering to myself if Lili was waiting for us in a restaurant.

Immediately we entered the place, a Lady appeared, spreading out her hands to Ohio who took her into his arms.

After they gave each other warm hug, I saw the lady’s face clearly and almost screamed out.
she also looked at me with shock written all over her. Which means she recognized me too.
I was dumb founded as I looked into the face of the kind Lady that took me home that night.
She even gave me her complimentary card and I didn’t even know where I dropped the card after that night.

Her word came rushing back to my mind.

…This is my business card, just in case you need someone to talk to. My name is Lydia. I live with my family…my husband and two sons close to the restaurant where I work. Listen to me, this is not the end of life….i understand how painful and thorn you are right now but give yourself time, you will be fine. You are beautiful and will get over all this. Is his loss not yours, don’t blame yourself for any of this. He was blind not to see the good woman in you. I can lead you inside if you want…

Those were her exact words to me that night. I remembered every detail.
The realization baffles me greatly.

So, all this while Ohio’s Lili was Lydia. But who is she to Ohio?
Lili was beautiful, young and very cheerful.
I feel at peace seeing her again, it was a good time to thank her properly for that night she showed me sisterly love.

It was indeed a small world, I never thought I will meet her this way again after avoiding the restaurant for a very long time.

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Episode 11.

By Amah’s Heart.

It was not easy for me to cope with both my parents’ pressure and what I just recently discover from Jojo. It was not easy to live every day at a time despite I was trying to do exactly that. Living everyday was tough but I did not want to give people something more to chew, I want to leave them clueless on what is going on in my life.

As usual, I continued my work and also pretend as if I know nothing about Jojo and Richard.
Crawled into my shell and became hard nut to crack for anyone.
I took people as they are and did not fantasize over friendship with any.

If Jojo, who was close to me, she was one of my bosom friends I don’t joke with. If she can back-stab me and still come to laugh and dine with me then no friend is worth trusting.
Sometimes, while in the house or at work I will just start thinking about the whole thing that has happened to me both in the past and present, whenever I thought of it I can’t help to stop the tears from flowing.

I don’t supposed to hype myself for any reason but I know who I am. I am a good lady with a good heart who want to see others happy and succeeding. I’m willing to contribute to their happiness and will never take part in anything that will make them sad.
I used to be a happy girl, who laughs alot and plays too much. But I can’t remember how to really laugh or to be the woman I was meant to be.
I buried myself in work to escape depression. I refused to take any hard drugs, or drink my head off or even start messing around with other men.
My parents did not only raise me well, I chose my every part to be a well behaved girl and to make them proud but is unfortunate that my remaining wish is not fort coming.
I was disciplined, I love one man at a time. And when I give you my heart I give it all out and make the man the center of my life and that is why it hurt so badly whenever I’m left at the receiving end.
It hurt like I’m going to drop dead when I think of how much of a failure I am to myself.
I have all the qualification to boast in but that Is not what the society want to look at. That is not what my parents’ are looking at. More is required which is mainly settling down with a man.
My friends are all leaving me behind to acquire this one thing that seem to be more recognized in the eyes of the society. People see you like you have not made it in life and has no right to speak out boldly just because they feel without a man in your life you are not a complete woman. If you are not married you are lacking behind.
It feels like a hoaxed, something far more important than your own happiness.
I even feel worst myself. my love life have been a real mess, and no matter how I promise myself that I won’t fall in love after each heart break I will find myself falling in gradually to the same thing that almost broke me into pieces.
I see myself as a failure too and wish I can undo my birth. Maybe it will be better if I was never conceived at all than to come into the world and live among people who will only make you feel worst about yourself and tag you what you are not.
Life has made me do some stupid and weird things. Spending my whole paycheck and even added my saving to it just to buy an expensive engagement ring to engage myself.
Who does such thing, is sound stupid and unreasonable. Anybody that hears of it will think I am really mad yet that is what I have to do so that my people can leave me alone.
And now they are asking for the man that engaged me and I can’t provide any. I don’t know where to get a man who will play along with me and I will pay him. This whole idea is so pathetic.
Sometimes the only thing I want to do is to die so that everyone will leave me alone. So that I can have some peace. So that every hurt, pain and disappointment will be forgotten.
No one understands me, not even one person. The person I called my friend, who I thought I can share my worries and burden without being judged, I never knew she was a wolf in sheep clothing. Knowing that I loved Richard and still went for him, gave him pet name, sing his praise to my ears without shame or remorse. We hanged out, gist and eat together and all the while she was calling me a fool and feeling like a victor.
I started falling for a man, Mr Ohio and spoke to her about him and now she want the same man too.
Jojo is going for every man I wanted and trying to squash every ray of light that tries to come my way.
Why…why will somebody I call my dear friend do such and has no regret for it.
I want to understand reasons why bad things happened to me but I still can’t figure it all out.

If I say life is fair, I will be lying…life is very unfair and I don’t have the boldness to say that God is partial. Who are mine to even question however God chose to deal with me. He is all-knowing after all. So I have no right whatsoever to question him. If his plan is for me to become a laughing stuff or a mere mockery in the eyes of other people…so be it. But I wish he can see the content of my heart, I wish God can see I have no evil intention for anyone and will never hurt people intentionally. I wish God can change all my sadness and make me smile again. Maybe He should make a man love me for real this time, A real man who knows what he wants not the usual that I have being getting. Not some bunch of confused men who cannot differentiate a real woman from fake.

I was sitting alone during break time, after coming out from the ladies toilet where I went to cry over my life.
I have not eaten any reasonable food that day, I only took hot choco in the morning before leaving the house. The heavy sorrow in my heart that week made me loose appetite for food. Nothing seem to matter anymore to me.
Instead of going for lunch during break time, I seclude myself to a quiet place just to think over my troubled life.
I was sitting at that corner all by myself thinking, I wipe every tear drop that tries to roll down so that it won’t spoil my small makeup and make my colleague to think I was really crying or had a water splash to my face.
Suddenly I heard a familiar voice that startled me.

“Hey…Becca. Are you okay? I checked you at the cafeteria but you are not there, and is lunch time. I noticed you have being skipping lunch this week and going off all by yourself. Are you alright…look at me. Have you being crying? What happened to you Becca…talk to me please?

Mr Ohio was the last person I expected to see there. Ever since he saw my engagement ring, which is almost two weeks now. Ever since then, he kept his distance and I have tried to avoid running into him. I have being avoiding him and did not want him to see me again.
I have taken off the miserable ring from my hand, it was beginning to remind me of how stupid I am.
I only wear it when I know Jojo the betrayer, Anita or any of my friends or relatives was coming around. But after they are gone I will remove it.
I was not expecting to see him close to me again, I quickly wiped my eyes with the tissue paper in my hand.
I try to talk but I don’t even know what to say to him. He moved more closer to me, I can perceive his fine cologne which usually identifies him whenever he walk pass.
He try to touch me but withdraw his hand. I guess he was having a double mind doing that.

“Talk to me, what is the problem? What happened Becca…why are you here all alone, crying? Did something bad happen? I may help you if you will open up to me. Just trust me. I don’t care if you are engaged or already married. All I want to do is to help you as a friend but I need you to trust me please…

Ohio spoke with a caring tone, as I look into his eyes I saw he was serious and was willing to help. But how will he help me. I have a big problem and is even bigger than him.
As I look at him and try to explain my trouble, the word got stock at my throat. I was even ashamed of myself to even tell him anything. I needed someone to talk to and I don’t know who to trust any more.
As I try to speak I burst into real tears. I started crying like a baby as if somebody beat me. I bent my head from the embarrassment I was causing the young man.
I couldn’t even stop the tears this time as it wash off the make up on my face, I did not give it a second thought. All I wanted to do was to cry out my sorrow and feel better when I’m done.
I used do that and I avoid crying in public but today was different, I couldn’t even stop myself. I wish Ohio was not there, I was feeling ashamed that he was watching me as I cry.

I try to get a tissue to wipe my face but the one I had was soiled.
Ohio bent over and took my hand, he lifted me up and draw me into a hug.
I struggled to get away but he held me tight to his chest and did not say a word until I was emotionally stable.
His cloth was stained with my tears mixed with the dirt from my face. Ohio did not care about his well ironed starched shirt getting messed up. All he cared was for me to be fine.
He led me to his car. His driver was sitting inside the car, he told the man to excuse him for some time and the man stepped down obediently.
He sat at the driver side after opening the door and guiding me in.
I sat beside him. As I checked the time, the one hour break was already over, I need to return back to my office seat and continue my work.
He stopped me from going and told me not to worry about working for the rest of that day. He said I was safe with him and no one will question that.

“Relax Becca, can you tell me what made you cry… talk to me. I may be able to help. Don’t be shy…I’m only a friend, trying to help another friend….if you will let me.

“I need a man to present to my parents as my fiance. A man who will play a perfect convincing role and pretend to be truly my fiance. I’m ready to pay or do whatever you want me to do as a form of payment. I just want my people to leave me the hell alone. I want to have a peace of mind, I’m tired of everything that life has thrown at me and want out. I will do whatever you want me to do or even pay any amount. But please don’t charge me too high, I’m not much of a classic fat earner. I’m just a 29years old lady struggling to live in a world filled with unknown enemies. I don’t even know who to trust anymore. Very soon another date will click and I will be 30years old. That is how time will be moving and before you know it, I’m close to the grave with neither a husband nor children. Life has dealt with me in a different way and I just want everyone to let me be. If I can convince my parents about the man in my life, they will let me be for the main time. I wish to…to…

I quickly recovered from running my mouth without thinking. I actually said everything without a real thought to it and when I saw the shock on his face I couldn’t proceed. I have said enough already.
Ohio may want to know why I’m looking for a man when I’m already engaged to one. He will really think I’m dumb and crazy to have engaged myself if I confess the truth to him.
I have being lying so much this days and I did not want that to become part of me.
I quickly apologized to him for running my wide mouth and asking him for the impossible.

“I’m so sorry sir. I…I wasn’t thinking. Please forget everything I said to you. Maybe I should really get back to work. I don’t want to bother you please.

He was looking at me strangely, not with his usual smile but with a surprised face which made me ashamed.

“Why…why are you looking for a man to play such a sensitive role Becca? I’m surprise to hear you say those first sentences. What happened to the man you have being engaged to? I mean, is your parents not aware that you are engaged already or they just want something different? I don’t understand Becca.

I picked my word carefully as I try to reply him.

“Is a long story sir. You will not understand. That is the only help I needed but I will find a way out of my dilemma. You have being helpful enough by listening to me. I appreciate sir.

He looked away from me and did not say anything for some time. He did not force me to start explaining what I meant, he just went all quiet. I got so uncomfortable with his quietness and was ready to get down from the car and disappear into thin air with my shameless self.

“I will help you Becca but…if you are sure that no man will come to harass me after or during the whole act. I hate drama and I try as much as possible to stay away from relationships drama. I will do whatever that will make you happy Becca, anything that will bring smile back to your face. Trust me…I’m not like all the bunch of people who betrayed you in the past. Tell me how many days we will be spending? The time we will be leaving? What does your parents likes so that I can do small shopping for them. Tell me what you like too. Give me details of how your parents will want their supposed son inlaw to act or behave and I will try and do exactly that. And you have to be precise about the days so that I will know how to reschedule any appointment. I’m not asking you to pay me with anything yet…you cannot even pay me if I ask for money. I can’t take you to bed as another means of payment just because I decide to do you a little favor. no, I’m not that kind of man. I once told you I’m a straight forward person and don’t like beating around the bush. If I wasn’t going to help, I would have said so clearly. If I wanted something from you I would have also make that known. my main payment is to see you smile. And basically, I will be doing this as your true friend. Start seeing me as one. My name is not “sir”. My real name is Ohio Jacobs. And I will give you more details in case they ask you about my background. And you will also tell me things I need to know about your family so that I will be prepared for whatever is ahead. By the way you look 20years to me not 29 or 30. You are beautiful and young. You are smart and I know you have a cheerful heart. Don’t let anybody make you feel inferior about yourself Becca. You can be 30 or 40 or even 60years old and it will not matter to those who truly care about you. Love can find you at any point and at any age. You need to start living your best life without any apology to others who feels you are either too old to laugh or too old to drive your first car, too old to get married or have your first child. Do not pay attention to people who feel you are too old to even complain over anything. Don’t let them get to you Becca. Your heart is pure and you deserves to be happy. I will help you in any way you want to be helped but you must be open to me and keep no secret. Alright? Please smile for me, I love to watch you smile. Give me your usual smile before we start executing our plans. You can count on me….

I was dumb founded, I couldn’t believe that Ohio agreed to help me.
I smile and even began to laugh at same time.
I felt like hugging him to show how grateful I am but I held but myself from doing that.
he was smiling too as he watch me laugh.
I wanted to jump and dance happily immediately he agreed to help me and I saw that he meant every word he just said.

Finally, I got a man who will play the game of convincing my parents. and he is doing it without payment of any kind.

I thought I will be disgraced if I failed to provide a man. It was one of my new developed trouble, it worries me day and night on how to go about it but surprisingly, help just located me.

It made me very happy and I can’t wait to proceed with Ohio to pay my parent’s a visit.

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Episode 1

By Amah’s Heart

The gold shoe was beautiful, it goes with the dress and the colour of the day. I fumbled with it in my hands with a lot of thoughts racing through my heart.
It’s just like old times, nothing different or special any more. Even if I try to wear the most attractive and convincing smile I still have a tasty patch that need refilling.
Everything around me kept reminding me that I’m not yet there. My troublesome parents that will not let me drink water in peace, they are the first reminder of the day.
My friends, my colleagues, the people on the road, the children in the neighborhood are parts of my everyday reminder that something important was missing.

Before, I used to worry and wonder when it will happen but not again. I have made up my mind that “nobody will push me to bow to pressure”.

Even as I said this to myself, deep down I know I didn’t even mean what I just said. I know all the motivational words I can use as a convincing strategy but I don’t fully buy into them.
There is always a longing, a desire I wish for but it’s becomes difficult with every passing day.

Rina’s day is tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow is the day to go and line up again and pretend everything is alright and also pretend I’m the happiest person on earth. But after it all I come back home to face reality.
Rina is a nice person and she deserved to be happy with the man that loves her, I’m happy that she is settling down with Eric after courtng for just a year. She is just one hell of a lucky girl.
I will try my very best to make her day count for her.
She was finding it difficult to pick the color of the day for her big occasion. It was I and Ella that helped her out.
Pink peach was the color that we concluded with. Then the bridal train will go on a gold shoe and a beautiful hairdo all in same pattern and styling.
Everything was bought and all ready for Rina’s day.
Few hours from now and it will be day break, time to get set and move down to join Rina and her train.
As much as I also looked forward to tomorrow just like everyone attending this wedding does, after the whole dancing and smiling and lining up to catch a bouquet, after the whole ceremony, what comes next?
Reality set in and I’m back to the way I used to be.

Working class lady dating Richard for two years and four months with no real hope for our excused of a relationship and yet love tied me down to him. I can’t move on because I love him and may not know how to start all over. That fear alone kept me bound to him.

With all my deep worries I finally slept off. I did not need the alarm to wake me up anymore because I’m used to waking up early in the morning for work so that I could join the staff bus.
But today there is no work, it’s a Saturday and I’m only up early because is a big day for Rina.

I quickly got into the bathroom. I had my bath and was out to get dress.
I looked at the dress again and began to wonder if I should just fold it into my bag or just dress up from the house and go.
My phone rang and it was Ella.

“Hello Becca, hope you are up. I’m almost ready and my fiance will be coming to drop me off at Rina’s place. How about you? Maybe we can also pick you on our way and go there together.

I checked the time it was 6am already.
I was already thinking on how to get a cab or any form of transport that morning to Rina’s place, it will be a relief to join Ella and her fiancé.

“Yea…yeah…please. I will be ready and out in about 10minutes from now. My makeup and hair will be done at Rina’s place. It’s just to wear my dress and shoes…

I got dressed and picked up my bag and few other needed things and was on my way out.
I know my Dad was up as usual, relaxing in the sitting room with the first morning news showing on the television.

“Dad, Good morning.

He answered without bothering to look at me. His eyes were fixed on the television.

“Dad, I’m going for my friend’s wedding, the one I told you about. It’s today….

And his response was “hmmm” before turning his head to look at me and then return to the television and said.

“Rebecca, almost all your friends are wedding every Saturday, this year alone I know you have attended up to three weddings of your friends and I know more are still coming. You enjoyed attending their own and watching them get married. When exactly will they attend yours or do I also need to go and find a husband for you after training you in school? If that Richard boyfriend of yours is not the serious type then you should leave him and look for someone that is serious. Don’t be surprised that your younger sister Melinda, will still first you and get married. She is rounding up with her school and you have finished up for two years now. Remind me…how old are you again….how old are you Rebecca?

This is turning up to be a bad ritual in the house. I was already fed up with him that early morning. I wanted to walk out but no one walks out on my Dad in anger. So I decided to remain calm. Act like a good girl so that he can finish up with his usual talks which does not bother me much.

“I’m 27years Dad…it is still too early for this Dad. Ella is coming to pick me up with her fiance and I need to be out before they drive pass…

My Dad began to laugh hysterically.

“So…so you mean Ella is also engaged and she will be the next wedding you will be attending. That is very interesting. Today you are going to catch another flower and bring it back home. That is the only thing you always bring back to this house whenever you go to your friend’s wedding. Flowers, bouquets of flower… that is what you kept on catching while your friends are leaving you behind to get married…

My Dad was still talking when my Mom came out of the room and asked my Dad why he was laughing earlier.

“Rebecca just told me that her friend Ella is engaged and getting married soon. She is going for Rina’s wedding. Last month was Mimi’s wedding and I know she has attended up to three or four wedding this year and comes back home with flowers because she is now a flower girl. Going to weddings to catch flowers and bringing it back home. You better talk to your daughter because I won’t be surprised if Melinda comes home with a man and the wedding plan begins and Rebecca will still go and catch flower in her younger sister’s wedding. I’m only talking because I’m beginning to get concerned. She is 27years, going to 28 and it’s a perfect time for a woman to settle down and start a family. If that boyfriend of hers is not serious then she should move on with her life but I Know Rebecca will not listen…she does only what is in her mind. A word is enough for the wise…I have spoken and I will keep talking…

There was a horn outside and then my phone was ringing, it was Ella and her fiance.
Without wasting time to hear my mother’s own version of “you are old enough to get married” I quickly said good bye to them and ran out to join Ella and her man in the car.
We drove down to Rina’s house and got ready before moving to the wedding ground.

Nothing was new to me because I have attended different weddings and joined in the bridal trains so it feels normal as the wedding went on and on.
I tried to cheer up, I tried to forget my own worries and enjoy the moment.

The time to catch the bouquet came.
I wanted to avoid it but Rina called me and Ella wanted to make sure that I was present as other single young ladies lined up.
As everybody got ready for the flower I was dodging it like a bomb. Rina threw it and I ran off the way and Ella caught it.
She was going to be the next bride, it’s only going to work out for her because she was already engaged.

Despite how many times I have caught the flower in different weddings I am still very much single with an unserious boyfriend.

After the whole reception was over I went home that night and my Dad was relaxing outside on his car when I came in.
I greeted him and tried to walk pass.

“You did not catch flower today or you threw it away before getting home. “Rebecca the flower girl” hope the wedding went well?

I replied him that it did went well before going back inside.

Maybe I will gather up money and rent my own apartment. Since my parents, especially my Dad will not let me rest, it will be better to move out and have peace of mind.

I freshened up and came out to make dinner. My Mom wanted to know every detail concerning the wedding.
She even asked if it was true I threw away the bouquet I caught because my Dad concluded that I did.

I told my mom that is was Ella that caught the flower this time not me.
She went on with many talks that I have already heard over and over.
My Mom was a sweet talker, it will be like a lovely advice but she will still spice it with insults.

I ate dinner, washed off the dishes before retiring to bed.
Maybe I will really have to ask Richard what his plan is. It’s time to get serious with my life.
He claims to love me but he was dedicated to work and his other friends and hardly have my time these days.
I will make him do because like my dad will always say to me “time waits for no one” two years and four months is enough to define where our relationship is heading.

I have had enough of my parents’ reminder. It is time to really sit up and grab the bull by its horn.

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