THE LOST IDENTITY: Episode 1 – 10

Written by NneNne Izuanagbara

EPISODE 1

Cornell dad called.
Get ready, you are taking youth’s sunday teachings on sunday. The topic you shall be speaking on is THE SET APART.

Prayerfully follow this topic. Allow the holyspirit to lead you and give you more insight. Foward your lessons to me for review.

I want to see a power packed lesson. Don’t forget that sunday school is just 30mins. You must not exceed your time. You will fast as well. Don’t forget.

Now that’s my dad. Pastor cornell usorochukwu Adindu. I am cornell( jnr) Chieweta Adindu.

Before dad took up his pastorship mantle, he has always loved God. He Will always drag us along. From morning altars, to night prayers, family bible sharing, bible studies, and all.

We must never miss sunday school. Infact, countless times, we have gone to church on empty stomach just so we won’t miss SUNDAY SCHOOL.

Everyone knew brother Cornell then, as my dad won’t miss the front seat then. Our pastor then was so fond of him. Dad answered God’s call when i was 10.

I have elder sisters. Nancy and sophia. My mum too is a child of God to the core. She is of the despensation of bornagain christains who preach against earrings, makeup, trousers and related stuffs.

She told my sisters that only the holy spirit can help one to totally surrender. My sisters couldn’t deal with not wearing earrings and using hair extentions. She let them. But trousers and make up is a NO in my home.

My sisters are fire brand. Mum allowed them encounter God by themselves. Nancy is a wonderful worship and praise leader. When my sister mounts the podium, hmmm, even i myself can’t stand the power that flows with her worship.

Nancy will fast 2 days to the day of her ministration. She will stay away from certain foods and do more of fruits and vegetables. Infact, she will rehearse till day break, even her rehearsal carries fire. I have never seen.

Sophia is a powerful teacher. Just like my dad. She received baptism of the holyghost at age 11. She is highly anointed by God. Sophia is the elderest.

I, cornell jnr, loved the Lord. I was commited to the things of God but what i am not able to place about me is if i am being forced, if i was just trying to live like a WORTHY PASTOR’S SON who doesn’t want to look different from his siblings, or if i was truly serving God out of my own decision and will. I was confused.

I love swag alot. I love jeans, crazy ones. I love crazy haircut. Infact i craved for dreads. I love wearing blinks. I love big boots, . I just want love to dress like “WORLDLY MUSICIANS” like my mum will call them. So many times i have secretly bought these things, put them on and take pictures. Each time i glanced at them, i will be like, wooooow, fine boy.

I am supposed to teach on Sunday. To be frank, i didn’t pray jack. I went to my elder sister sophia, she helped me arrange points. I had to tell her i needed more points to add to the ones i have. After rewriting, i took it to my dad on friday.

He looked at it and looked at me. At this point my heart was pounding.

-hmmm, he sighed
-who wrote this ?he asked
-please don’t tell me you,, he added.
-i know your capabilities,he continued,this sounds so SOPHIAIC he said.

Jesus, my mind skipped. How did this man know it was sister sophia who wrote this. I was just speechless & moveless. I held my hands together and was blinking my eyes out of fear.

Cornell, he called me.
You are only helping yourself to be a spiritual domant, empty head and what the yorubas call OLODO.
I will help you out son.

He took out his pen and gave me jotter and his bible and handed them over to me.

-The topic again is THE SET APART. Use daniel, shedrach, meshac and Abednego as your case study. Search through the book of daniel.

Kai, i sure know my dad, i just sat down and started searching the scriptures. If i don’t, hmmm. Serious problem.

Amazingly by myself, i was able to make out good points. I was also ministering to myself because i was guilty of some of the points i pened down.

I think i was enjoying what i was doing until that sunday.

I had prepared to dress niggerciously. I had a perfect haircut of my choice. So that morning, after showering, my dad came into my room. He handed over a parcel to me.

-you are wearing this today son. He said.

-dad, i replied, i already have something to wear.

-you are wearing this one i got you son. Please be quick, don’t waste my time.

I opened the parcel. What ? My dad got me shirt (long sleeve for that matter)and tie(how i hate tie) with plain trouser.

Gooooosh, i didn’t know what to say or do. I started hating myself as a pastor’s son. I was there delibrating on how to wear this thing dad brought when i heard my dad’s horn.

Shit, i shouted. When he horns, no one stops him from moving, not even my mum. The next thing i heard was…..

Junior, come with bike. There is five hundred naira on the table.

I started crying. I will dress like this and walk on the street? My niggars will laugh at me. They will start calling me PASTOR .

There i decided. I can’t deal with this shit. I just can’t. I should be given the opportunity to be ME. I decided to fight for my freedom.

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