WHAT DOES MY HUSBAND WANT?
Episode 4.
By Amah’s Heart.
Things are gradually changing. The home is not as it used to be again.
My husband sometimes returns late and goes to bed straight after taking a shower.
I was happy at first that he wasn’t disturbing me in bed but is beginning to get me concerned of whatever maybe happening.
I needed time to mourn my aborted baby, I needed time to forget that my own husband has a hand in all of this. I wanted to forgive him wholeheartedly for leading me into such a dreaded road.
All I needed was time and Ladi gave me enough of it to sort myself. Although is hard for me to forget I still have to put it behind me and forge ahead.
I was overlooking Ladi’s behavior all this while but I’m no longer comfortable with it.
We had our time in bed last night but I can’t call it our usual because I sense Ladi’s mind was far from the moment.
He was distracted and is unlike him.
While at my shop today, Salami visited and we got talking. Is 6months already and if I have kept the pregnancy I would have been 7 to 8months gone. And within the next month I will be planning to welcome my child.
But Ladi made me do the unspeakable.
“You are still struggling to get over this Miwa? Try and let go….your worries will not do any good to you. i hate to see you like this. I’m sure Ladi has forgotten…
“Salami, I don’t know if I will ever forget. Ladi was not the one that went through knives and emotional torture. Ladi started acting like nothing happen right after a month the deed was done. It was my flesh and blood and we should be in our seven or eight month’s pregnancy journey by now if Ladi did not play God over that innocent baby. I have forgiven him even though he doesn’t really feel sorry for it. But I need to forgive him so that I will love him like I used to. Anytime I see pregnant women or nursing mothers the whole unforgettable experience will start flooding back. It would have been better if the child was never conceived at all or I naturally lose the pregnancy along the way but sending me to get rid of a baby who has done no wrong to anyone. Is what I can’t seem to forget but I’m trying Salami, I’m really trying.
Salami went about consoling me.
“Miwa, I understand how painful and difficult it was. I thought it was for the best…to save your marriage since Ladi did not want another child and the issue was already causing division in your home. I’m really sorry. Is over five months, please try to move on and focus on your three children and also your husband. Ladi loves you and I know you deeply loves him. Don’t lose yourself over this past incident. Focus on the blessing at home and let things return to normal.
I nodded absent minded as one of my sales girl brought in a material, asking me how much it will go last because a customer was pricing it below the price.
I told her the last price it can be sold and she left with it.
After sometime she returned again with the same material. That the woman wants to buy it but she is asking for a better bargain.
I stood from my seat to meet the woman outside and began to explain to her that the price I gave her was very reasonable.
I looked down her stomach and saw her protruding Belly. She was a young woman and looks happy as she placed one of her hand on her stomach while insisting on a bargain.
She is probably seven or eight months pregnant just the same time with me if I have kept the baby.
Because of her condition, I gave her the price she was asking for even though I was at a lost. The material was below the cost price. It was very expensive foreign material but the stubborn pregnant woman insisted on a certain price which did not favor me.
Salami came out to see the woman who stood her ground and refused to have a change of mind over the price or even walk away.
After standing there with me, Salami walked back inside to wait.
I have to give the material to the woman, mainly because of her unborn child. She rubbed her hands on her stomach, smile and looked at me before walking away.
Was she trying to mock me or what?
Why will I even think she is mocking me when she doesn’t even know who I am or what I did?
I watched her leave. She turned back and looked towards my shop,
Smile again and continue on her way to another side of the market.
I waved the negative thought and feeling off as I return to Salami.
“Women and drama, how can she be insisting like that when she knows that her money was not upto the said price? If I was the one, I wouldn’t have given her that material. She will have to stand there until she is ready to go. I wanted to whisper to your ears not to give it to her but you were already moved by her condition. Listen Miwa, stop feeling guilty over what you did or you will run down this your business in self-pity. Giving out your expensive material to every pregnant woman you see just because they remind you of the past. You have to move pass that. Your husband and children and even your business needs your full attention. Okay?…
I agreed with Salami as we talked about other things.
A month came and pass and I was regaining back my full self. I was again loving my husband, my children and focusing on my business too. After three weeks of the following month, Ladi said he was going to travel for just two days and will not stay away for more than two days.
He said it was a business trip and he want to do a survey in another state as he plan to open another branch but looking for a perfect place that will favour his business.
I wish him good luck as he left.
He calls the following day that he has arrived and has settled in and we spoke about the children and also what he will be doing within the day.
He did not call again after then. I called him in the afternoon but my husband did not answer the call. I assumed he was probably busy and I decided to call at night but his line was off.
I managed to sleep that night and very early the second day I called and he said he will call back that he was checking out a place.
My mind was at rest knowing he was alright.
I waited for him to call the whole day but he didn’t. I decided to call him again in the night and his phone was off.
He did not come home as he promise to do the second day and same thing on the third and fourth day.
He called and said he was so occupied trying to figure out the perfect place. He apologies for not returning home as promised. He asked how I was doing and also the kids and I told him that we all miss him and will be looking forward to having him back soon.
He promised to come home once he was done.
After a week and few days, I was on phone with him when I heard a female voice saying something to him or somebody close to him but I can’t figure out what exactly was said and then a cry of a baby was heard.
This was the second time I will be hearing a baby’s cry close to him. The first time I did not take it serious because he said he was in a place filled with children but the second time was in the night and the baby’s cry was heard very close to him
I was about to ask who has the baby that was crying but he ended the call and his phone was switched off immediately.
I waited the whole night for him to call but he didn’t.
When he later called the following day he said he was preparing to come home and will be arriving the next day.
I was happy that finally he my husband was coming home and I hope his business journey was a great success as I look forward to having back.
I did not take the baby’s cry that i heard or the female voice serious. My husband do not like baby’s fusing continuously and must have felt so tired listening to a stranger’s baby crying close to where he probably lodged, while he was trying to rest.
I made his favorite meal as I looked forward to having my husband back home. He spent almost two weeks, even though he had promised to spend just two days but end up using two weeks.
The days he spent out there is not a problem, is only for the best. He is working hard to give us the best and that is all that matters to me.
I love my husband and I have try to move past every bad feeling or sadness which he caused me. I want my home back as it used to be.
Ladi loves me and the children. Everything he is out there doing is for our own good and nothing else.
I try to focus on the positive side of life while setting my husband food on the table. The last time I called him he was close to the house and very soon he will be home.
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