UNTIL I MET YOU : CHAPTER 1 – 10
Things didn’t go my way after that terrible experience with Freddie. He was always calling even after I deleted his number.
I sit opposite the therapist as she tells me about motivational stories. But as long as I’m breathing that didn’t change a thing.
After that rape incident , I suffered from depression. I almost took my life too thinking Freddie left with everything. The therapist was nice. She talk a lot of good stuff and give me a book to read.
I was on dosage and always visiting the therapist for check up. For some awkward reasons I’m always indoors. I’m broken and my parents really didn’t help matters.
Every single mistake I make , they are always referring me as a whore and that made me cry and I had to be best friends with my room .
” We’re moving out.” Dad announces after dinner.
He lost his deacon position in our church and since then he hated me more. Maybe they don’t hate me , maybe they are just annoyed and hurt that my one bad move ended and stole everything away from them. Mom also lost her position too in our parish.
The church withdraw the money they normally pay us and mom is always flaring up , using me as example. Always comparing me to Leslie.
” Moving out ?” Leslie asks tucking back her braids in her tight bun.
” Yes. Georgia has nothing for us since your sister Ariel spoilt everything.
The church already dropped us from our positions and i won’t stand being just an ordinary member in our parish.” He says. He has always loved God. We were raised in fear of God.
I remembered when we were in highschool. Mom made rules for us.
• don’t date boys , they will break your heart.
• don’t date boys , God hates it.
• no sex before marriage or you’ll perish in hell.
I really didn’t get to remember all their rules cause it was useless. I was this nerdy girl in glasses. I don’t even have a boyfriend or an admirer. I was always bullied and insulted.
Most times I body shame myself , thinking I wasn’t perfect. Freddie gave me light in homecoming when he told me I was beautiful. I stood opposite the mirror that night and i knew I was pretty maybe I wasn’t noticed yet but I didn’t care anymore after he told me he had a crush on school most popular girl. What about me ?
I gave up college and choose to go to nun school. Afraid of being bullied again. And now I’m a rape victim , so pathetic.
” We’re moving to Buffalo.” Mom adds glaring at me under her black eye liner and mascara. It’s so weird she wears that after advising us not to apply make up.
” New York.” Leslie exclaims.
” Something wrong ?”
” No.. I mean..” she stutters. New York’s her big dream city. Most times I think she secretly has a boyfriend. She’s always fund of so many social media celebrities and musicians.
I’m not really a fan. it’s weird cause it’s what our parents wants. Leslie is always secretly gawking over many douche celebrity scum bags.
” New York is fun.” She squeal. I didn’t say a word since my speech are not always considered. I’m the bad egg.
” Yeah. Because of Alexa ?” Mom asks and furrows her brows at Leslie.
” No mom. Alexa is an ass.”
” Language..” dad snap at Leslie.
” I’m sorry.”
” I don’t really wanna see you hanging around Alexa. She likes boys too much . I even heard she had three boyfriends.” I secretly roll my eyes and fiddle my chopsticks on my ramen.
” I heard Doreen caught her watching porn on her laptop. What a child. So sinful. I’m really happy my Leslie isn’t one of this wild kids.
Just like some people who sneak to have sex with their boyfriend when they are supposed to be a sister in church.” Mom fantasize and that hurt me.
She’s always talking about my bad fate. I bite my lip to hold back the pending tear but it luckily slip out. I hate my life. I get up from the table with my ramen and turn to leave.
” And where are you going ?” Dad ask through clench teeth.
” I’m going to my room. I need to take my medicine.”
” Yeah. It’s really weird you’re not pregnant , you would have been in the streets by now.” Mom utter followed by an irritating scoff.
” I’m just gonna leave.” I say and stomp out to my room.
UNTIL I MET YOU : CHAPTER 1 – 10
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