ALL FOR NOTHING…

Episode twenty Eight

When I returned to Canada, I decided to have a heart to heart talk with Toyin. I had asked for Timi to come too but unfortunately he couldn’t make it as he was arrested for drug trafficking. I couldn’t believe Timi could do something like that.

When Toyin came over to my place that weekend, I decided it would be fair to let her go and even if it will hurt her, it will be the best. I decided to make her know that God’s plan for us was more than what we were seeing at that particular point in time.

“How was Nigeria? And how is your mother?” Toyin asked me.

“Nigeria is fine and mama is doing great too.” I replied.

“I have talked to Dad about you and he is no longer angry. He is giving me his consent to be with you. Even my older brother is okay with it now.” He said.

I didn’t know how to tell her about what I had in mind to tell her again because I could see she was doing so much just to be with me and even Lola is giving up for us to be together.

“Aren’t you happy to hear that?” She asked me.

I gave a smile and nodded.
“Of course. I am” I replied.

“You don’t seem to be. Is anything the problem?” She asked.

“No dear, all is well.”

“Ayo, do you really love me?” She asked as it was beginning to appear that she was doubting my love for her.

“Yes, Toyin. I do. I love you.” I replied.

“Then why aren’t you showing it?”

“What do you mean by not showing it?” I asked.

“No ksses, nothing that makes it look like we are a couple. It’s as if we are just ordinary friends. Come on Ayo, we should be having some kind of intimacy.” She said.

I could tell that life overseas had really changed Toyin alot.

She adjusted herself towards me and asked me to stare into her eyes.

“If you really love me, you won’t hold back any feelings for me.” She said.

Just like magic in play, I found myself so drawn to her that I started kssing her.

I wanted to stop but she wasn’t ready to. It became passionate and er©tic at the same time. My strength as a human was beginning to fail me. I couldn’t resist what was going on again. I felt like pulling away but a greater force was pulling me towards Toyin.

“I love you.” She whispered and then without intending to, I found myself breaking the vow I had made to God since I was a boy not to have sx till the night of my wedding.

“What have I done?” I asked myself as I sat down on the bed.

“I’m sorry.” Toyin apologized.
“I didn’t know what came over me. I was carried away.” She said.

“What have we just done? We shouldn’t have done this.” I said.

“I feel so disappointed with myself right now.”

“You don’t have to feel that way Ayo. It was I who initiated the whole thing. I am to blame here.” She said.

I couldn’t bring myself to look at Toyin in the eye. I felt so ashamed because I couldn’t resist her.

Toyin didn’t stay the whole Weekend before returning to Quebec City.

About three weeks after the incident, Toyin called to tell me that she was pregnant. I almost collapsed where I was. I never planned for any of that. I never planned to have a child out of wedlock. I wanted to legitimately get married before having a child but with the news delivered by Toyin, I could say it wasn’t going to happen like that anymore.

“What do we do now? I suggest you come and get married to me now.” She said.

“Get married to you? I’m still a student and don’t have a means of livelihood yet. How do I take care of you and the expected baby?” I replied.

“It doesn’t matter dear. Dad has enough to take care of me and the baby till you get a job and become financially stable.”

I didn’t want to argue with her so I agreed to what she had said. I didn’t know how to tell Mama about it because she would be really disappointed in me and Lola, how do I tell her I would be a father soon? All these and many more were the questions that piled up in my head.

Toyin kept the pregnancy and luckily for her, she was in her finals and was preparing to graduate.
Plans for us to get married were being made and I hadn’t told mama about it yet. I was just so ashamed to tell mama that I would be getting married because I was expecting a baby.
What I still didn’t understand was why God allowed me to fall for Toyin and why he allowed her to get pregnant. If truly Toyin wasn’t the one then none of that should have happened. I began to doubt the authenticity of the dream I had back then.

We decided to visit the hospital to check for compatibility before the marriage. Toyin’s pregnancy was about six months old then. We decided to wait that long so we could both finish our exams before getting married properly. I still hadn’t told mama about it and neither did Lola have any idea of what was happening to me.

It was at the hospital that it was discovered that both Toyin and I were not medically compatible as regards to our genotype. All these while Toyin was a sickle celled homozygous and it didn’t appear that way.

“Why didn’t you tell me you were a stickler? Why did you keep this a secret from me?” I asked.

“I was afraid if I told you, you wouldn’t proceed to marry me. I was believing you’d be an AA and if that should be, then I have no problem marrying you.” She replied.

“Now, I’m an AS and you know what that means? It means trouble for you and for our unborn child.” I replied.

I decided to call Mama and tell her all that was going on because I was really losing my mind.

“My son, God is not the author of confusion. If Toyin is really your wife then you don’t have to worry.” Mama said.

When I chatted Lola up to tell her about it, I lost the courage to do so.
She told me she’d be visiting Canada in two months time as the company had decided to send her on an expertise training.
“How is this possible?” I asked her.
“You are still a student and having such benefits already. What will happen when you finally graduate?” I asked in surprise.

“Ayo even me too, I’m surprised. I only applied for a scholarship but after getting it, I got all these in excess. It’s God that is working.”

“How long will the training last?” I asked.

“It’s just a week and just in case you are wondering if I’ll be away from school for a whole week, you shouldn’t. It will take place during the holidays?” She replied.

We talked about other things but I couldn’t tell her that I was going to be a father soon.

“During the Eight month of the pregnancy, Toyin started having labour pains which was abnormal.
Her father had called me up that evening that Toyin had been rushed to the hospital as she was expecting her baby already.

I stopped what I was doing and then took the last train going to Quebec City that evening. I arrived late and was expecting that before I get there, Toyin would have given birth already.

By the time I arrived at the hospital, I was told that the baby had refused to come out and Toyin would have to undergo a caesarian section.

I signed the document for the operation to be carried out and after about ten minutes, the cry of a baby was heard. Toyin delivered a bouncing baby girl and even if it was out of wedlock, I forgot about that and jumped up for joy. Finally, Ayomide Akintunde is now a father.

After another twenty minutes, I was allowed to go in and meet Toyin. She was smiling when I entered.
“You are now a father.” She said to me. Her father had gone to meet the doctor in the office and I was the only one with her.

“Yes dear and you are now a mother.” I replied smiling too.

“Ayo, please take good care of the baby. Love her and promise me you’ll never make her feel the absence of a mother.” She said.

“What nonsense are you uttering? What is wrong with you?” I asked in surprise.

“I love you Ayo.” She said and shut her eyes. That was it. That was the last time I saw Toyin. I raised an alarm but before the nurses came to her aid, she had given up the ghost.

I couldn’t hold back my tears.
“Toyin, wake up! You can’t die!” I cried but it was too late.

It was after she died that it was discovered that she had suffered from agglutination. The doctor wasn’t aware of it but at a point during the surgical procedure, she had a cut and suffered agglutination.

I couldn’t believe that even doctors overseas could make such mistakes too.
Toyin died right in front of me and there was nothing I could do. It was at that point I realized what the accident in the dream meant.

I was partly responsible for Toyin’s death because if I hadn’t slept with her, she wouldn’t have become pre.gnant and none of that would have happened.. it was all my fault….

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