WORKING AS A NANNY : CHAPTER 31 – 40
BY Worthy stories
Chapter 37
JADA’S POV
I watch Ryan look at his room in awe. He runs to his ‘Hulk’ themed bed and jumps on it.
“This is awesome.”
He says excitedly as he grins and I smile. Ryan has adjusted to the place and he loves it here. We moved into the house five days ago and I had people decorate this room after enrolling him into a school twenty minutes away.
“I take it that you love it.” I say and he gives me a cute grin. “Now, for the final surprise…” I say dramatically making him stop jumping on the bed and looks at me with a wide smile.
“Follow me.” I say and start jogging. I hear a thud as he jumps from his bed and follows me to the backyard were I had sealed the door with a large cardboard so that he couldn’t see.
I give him a pair of scissors and he looks at me curiously. I take him to the sealed door where I placed a ribbon.
“And now, for the birthday that I missed I’d like to present to you my last surprise.” I say dramatically making Ryan chuckle.
“A swimming pool?” He asks when I’m done and I roll my eyes.
“How did you know?” I ask raising an eyebrow with mock anger and he looks at me.
“B’cause swimming pools are found in the backyard and, I’ve been asking for it a lot. I know you’d do anything for me.” Ryan says making me look at him in awe. I move closer to him and kneel in front of him.
“That’s right baby.” I say kssing his hair. “Now cut it.” I say releasing him. He cuts the ribbon making the cardboard fall.
I open the door and we walk outside where a large oval pool is. I’ve placed a high water slide on the shallow end. He runs to the edge of the pool and kneels then dips his hand as if not believing that it’s there.
“Woah. Best pool ever!” He shouts and I already know that he wants to swim.
“Go change.” I say and he runs into the house. I take off my jacket and start walking into the house too so that I can change into a swim suit.
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That was so fun. I can’t wait to have friends and show them our pool.” Ryan says after dinner. I smile at him.
“It’s time to sleep. Go start preparing for bed and I’ll be there in a few minutes.” I say and he nods as I walk to the kitchen and start cleaning.
I walk straight to Ryan’s room and find him reading a book. He shuts the book after noticing me and I sit on his bed.
“Are you happy here Ryan?” I ask suddenly feeling unsure but he smiles at me and nods. I smile too and kss his forehead. “Now sleep. I’ll take you to school tomorrow.” He gives me a disgusted face and I giggle.
“Sing for me.” He says and I do so.
I shut Ryan’s door and start walking to the kitchen and pick out a new bottle of wine and a glass. I pour myself a glass but when I’m about to place the bottle back to it’s place, I decide against it.
I walk to my bedroom where my laptop is on the table and I switch it on. I take a sip as I look through the job advertisements but none pick my interest.
I see a few secretary adverts and I imagine myself as one and a laugh escapes my lips. I’m not good at obeying rules. I search for some time until I give up. I let out a sigh as I pour another glass of wine.
When I had a perfect life, I always saw myself as a fashion designer. I was so into fashion that I decided to study it.
I had so many ideas. Suddenly, my mind drifts to Ashton and his death. I was so depressed that I put my studies on hold and my mother had also been diagnosed with a brain tumor. I had to be there for her. I was five months pregnant then.
I take a huge gulp of the wine and try to think of something else and surprisingly, I think about Leo. I’ve always done what my guts and conscience have told me is right.
The Spider’s minion said Leo was klled because of me but it can’t be true. I saw the shooter already aiming at him and so I shot him but I was already late… too late.
It must be because of my relationship with Julian. I saw the news and Julia was found next to Julian te..rribly hurt with a recording where they admitted to the Williams’ mu..rders.
I thought Jayden would kll them as he had said he would but leaving Julian paralyzed might have been enough for him.
Sometimes I wonder about Jayden too. His personality mostly. He said we’re more alike than I would think and sometimes I believe him.
Only people with tainted souls like mine can enjoy torturing and ki lling as he does. I t®rtured Ian for hours but he only took a short period of time. How did he do it?
Is his soul darker than I think? He lost his father, brother, best friend and nephew after all and I know the feeling.
Each death took a piece of me with them and my baby’s destroyed me.
The thought makes my heartbeat increase. My son is out there and I’m too scared to search for him. I’m trying to convince myself that Ryan might be him but what if he isn’t?
I’m a bad mother.
I take another sip as I walk to my balcony that faces the backyard.
Was I wrong to come here instead of staying in LA and search for my son? Am I wrong to want a new life? To try and feel human again?
If I’m honest with myself, I know I ran away from reality. We make choices that we have to deal with and I choose to deal with mine.
I feel a cooling breeze and my mind turns to a few nights ago in my apartment when Jayden came back after dealing with Julian. I was sipping on a glass of wine just as I am doing right now. That day, I felt human.
I didn’t feel as broken as I’ve always been. That scared me. I crave for that feeling but I’m scared.
With Ryan, I feel whole. I feel like I have a purpose in life. I feel content.
His happy face and grins make me feel proud of myself. They make me happy too and I’d die for him because he’s my son blood or not. I’ve always seen him as my second chance. He’s the baby that I wish the Italians never took away from him.
But why do I still this way inside? This suffocating feeling inside of me?
My rhetorical questions are disrupted by a ping on my cell phone making me furrow my eyebrows.
Only the house retailer and Ryan have my number. I walk to it to find an unknown number flashing but I already know who it is.
“How did you find me?” I ask immediately and I hear a chuckle.
“I’ll always do baby.” I roll my eyes before registering what I’ve done. I take a sip of the last wine before placing the glass on the table next to my window.
“I had imagined you taking wine and looking outside the balcony like last time I came to your house.” Jayden says and my eyes look outside out of reflex.
“What do you want?” I ask instead.
“I found your son.” My heart stops for a second
WORKING AS A NANNY : CHAPTER 31 – 40
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