THE LOST IDENTITY: Episode 1 – 10

EPISODE 8

The youth fellowship were to meet after service. I stayed back.

Wow!!! See youths.

They were looking sooo expensive. All of them were shining. See girls, ladies. This church nawa. Girls were on leggings, jeggings, trousers, jump suit. Awwww, they were looking so beautiful. See their makeup, eyelashes, skin, oh mah Gad!!!

I started crushing for the lady who lead the opening prayer. I was shocked with what i saw.
Immediately she started by saying…….

-Oh let’s begin to worship the king of kings for a wonderful service.

Argh!!! I started hearing speaking in tongues. Eheeee? I opened corner eye. Unbelievable!!! These ones? I was like……

See dawan with one pack of red lipstick on her lip. She is even speaking in tongues? And the other one raising her hands that has claws in place of nails, she can speak in tongues too? Ha!!!

I looked behind me, one brother was wearing dread o, see him sweating and speaking in tongues.

The lady i was crushing on, who was leading had this cute tinted galax hair cut. She pierced her ear into three places.

One sister did not mercy of the eye lash. She really really followed the name. She lashed her eye with GREEN colour o. She even fixed that one they fix. She was bursting in this powerful tongue ehee. My God!!!

Who will see these ones and believe they are born again to start with. See them flowing in the holyghost. Me that is pastor holiness son, i don’t even know how to pray very well, let alone be in spirit like this.

Opening prayer ended. Praise and worship took off.
One brother on weaving came out. Whaaaaaat?
When i mean weaving, i mean he plaited his hair. Hmmmm. The guy can sing. Come and see dance. one lady was just shaking her butt. Ha!!!

You can’t see any of these in my father’s church. Dad calls them APPEARANCES OF EVIL and the bible boldly said we should ABSTAIN .

Dad will always say, looking good is good but becomes bad when it insults God’s creation and promotes the work and of the devil and products of the kingdom of darkness.

I was just in a mist of turbulent waters. I was confused. I was battling in my spirit, while the dancing and shouting went on, i was lost in thoughts. i was like……

-junior what’s wrong with you na? See Jesus swag nom o, you’re dulling yourself. Ogbeni dance joor.

Woooooow, i *started dancing. It was fun. I was enjoying it. MM.Dad will always say, YOU DON’T GET ENTERTAINMENT IN THE HOUSE OF GOD. YOU GET MINISTRATION. Entertainment makes you laugh, makes you happy but cannot REVIVE. Dad* said, MINISTRATION CARRIES REVIVAL FIRE because it goes with the leading and directives of the Holy spirit.

I remembered this when comedians were brought up to……… I just lost the word to use. I would say entertain.

Hmmm,,my dad will never allow a comedian in his church. Everything was just different here. Time for special number. One brother was RAPPING. Heeeeee!!! Wooow. Mehn, i started loving it all.

The straw that broke the camel’s neck was when the youth leader mounted the podium to preach. Wooooow. His message changed my entire reasoning about thia born again thing. I immediately considered my dad backward and old fashioned.

His topic was “YOU ARE A god”

He said was bought me over completely. His words…….

God created man and named man but God created animals and other things and gave man the Authority to name them.
What Adam called the animals, trees, fruits and so on, is what they bare.

Hey, God has created you he said. Create your own world as a youth.

He now said………

Youths, don’t make Christianity boring. Many churches loose souls because they are too strict. I thank God for our Mama and papa.

Dress to kill. Yeah. Don’t go looking old, tieing scarf every minute, looking shabby, looking so unattractive. Don’t you see our mama, baby la hot for Jesus. ,(they started shouting) and our papa boo la hot for Jesus as well. Girls, bring in the guys, guys draw in the girls. Instead of them going to clubs, draw them to church, to God. They don’t need any outward change.

The bible says, if you confess with your mouth, believe in your heart that christ is the son of God, (all of them shouted ) YOU ARE SAVED,(they clapped and cheered)

He continued…..

Your sins are forgiven.

Meheeen, i was loaded. Now I’m convinced. Dad doesn’t know anything new. He is of the old time religion that was good for only PAUL AND SAILAS. (That song is very correct) on my way home, i went straight to the saloon.

-guy abeg, tint my hair. Ehen, how dem take dey get pink lips sef. I told my barber.

He was just looking at me.

-wetin happen na? Tint my hair gold colour one side like that.

-hmmm, junior he replied. No be your papa church you dey go again? Before na fowl n**sh you barb. Now you won tint am join con.dey ask pink lips. Junior hmmmm, take am easy o. Yahoo church full eveywhere o. You no dey live with your papa again?

I got angry.

-e be like say you no need my money. Mah go another place.

He changed his mouth…..

-argh, no naaa, e never reach like that. Oya sidon. Wait mah finish this one.

He was making a man’s hair. I sat and waited.

Dear listener, ladies and gents, i got my hair tinted. As for the pink lips, he told me what to do. As i walked home. I noticed the fear of mum and dad was no longer there. All on my mind was, WORSE COME TO WORSE, I PARK COMOT.

It was almost 7:45pm when i got home.

I walked into the house. There was light so everyone could see my hair at first sight. Dad was the first person who saw me followed by mum. Dad was just looking at me. Mum shouted.

-chineke meeehhh, (my God) junior, what did you do with your hair? Heeeeey!!! It has gotten to the extent of painting your hair? I thought you said it was a church you were going to? Is this what you went to do?

Dad was just looking at me.

-mum, i replied, this is what i want, who i want, and how i want it. I’m an adult now. Allow me to be me. The colour is just on my hair, not in my life.

My dad who was silent now spoke.

-junior that’s a life. The spot started from your life. The colour of your life changed. It changed the colour of whom you are, your true identity, and what you represent. That change of colour first takes place from within. Son, i have been prayerfully following you. Don’t take my silence for weakness.
I your father, stopped doing what i want, being who i want, thinking how i want, since the day i gave my life to Christ. I am not asking you to be like me, you are to be like christ. What you are doing now is COMPROMISING. Jesus can’t do that.
Son, i have given you the opportunity to count your teeth with your tongue but you didn’t. I will teach you how a good son should behave. Go on your knees now.

I looked my dad in the face and said……..

-i won’t. What for exactly ? Did i kill somebody? Did i steal from you? Because i f***ing made my hair ? Who does that ?

My dad slapped me…..

-the F word is *prohibited in this house and you know it. Cornell, you will not rubbish this gospel of holiness i have upheld before you were born.

I replied my* dad……

-It is not a *must to follow your OLD TIME RELIGION. It was only Good for PAUL AND SILAS. I am not any of them. I am* a child of God too. This is how i choose to serve God.

-it won’t work in my house. (Dad said with the loudest voice ever)

I tried walking out. Dad pull me back. I pushed his hands. Dad tried again to hold me back. I pushed him to the ground.

-you can’t hold me back. Just as your own father couldn’t hold you back.

Junior mum shouted
My sisters stood and was looking helplessly
Dad broke down in tears. He was heavily crying as he walked back to his room.
Mum was crying too. she followed dad. My sisters ran into their room.

That night, i decided to leave the house.
I left. With Gresh’s recommendations, i moved into papa and mama’s house.

I now stay with my new pastors. Papa and Mama AKPAN.

My freedom was just a bold step into bondage.

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